10-20-2016, 11:32 AM
One thing I need to eliminate from my life is the need to do things perfectly. My quest for perfection is actually just an elaborate coping mechanism for being afraid of doing something wrong or being unwilling to acknowledge my shortcomings. And all this goes back to my self worth and how I measure it based on my ability to be proficient in something.
In a way my entire life has been my biggest procrastination project, trying to figure out everything and get things perfect before I stepped out into the world. Life just doesn't work like that and I thought somehow if I worked on myself enough I'd have this level of control that I desired. A guarantee that my life would be smooth sailing. But I just don't think that's in the cards for me and I need to embrace that.
In a way my entire life has been my biggest procrastination project, trying to figure out everything and get things perfect before I stepped out into the world. Life just doesn't work like that and I thought somehow if I worked on myself enough I'd have this level of control that I desired. A guarantee that my life would be smooth sailing. But I just don't think that's in the cards for me and I need to embrace that.
