10-10-2016, 05:42 PM
(10-10-2016, 04:08 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Last post for V2.4.
When Shannon said that when you stop listening, you don't necessarily "stop listening," he wasn't kidding. I only listened to 2 loops yesterday, had a pretty good day. Nothing major to report, but my mood was good and had the typical DMSI IOIs in public. I even ran into my 5th grade teacher, who I had a crush on at that time, and damn she's hot. She's probably 11 years older than me. She was also my swim lessons instructor, and stayed with us when my folks went out-of-town. She asked me for my number and told me she'd be in touch. Hmm...
OMG! I had a crush on my grade 5 teacher too! She was SO hot. I'd love for this to happen!
Man! You gotta tap that. "Life's too short", "YOLO", and all that.
(10-10-2016, 04:08 PM)RTBoss Wrote: No loops overnight. Today has been emotional, a little anxiety, and a trip to the past. I literally wrote down every instance I blew an opportunity with a girl, was hurt by a girl, was jealous of a girl - starting with the rejection my next door neighbor childhood friend gave me when I was 5 and I asked her to marry me. I also remembered getting caught playing doctor by her mom, as well as another girl and HER mom. I got severely punished both times. Man, I was a little pimp when I was a little kid. Anyway, every instance there was a lot of fear involved, or the keep-it-in-your-pants BS, or I friend-zoned myself.
I hear you man. I got caught playing doctor too, and was punished for it.
