10-09-2016, 01:37 PM
Did an experiment last night. I usually play my subs fairly loud. Last night, I did the masked, really low. Still got lots of resistance today. Still not feeling any better. Totally destroyed my cut today. Ate tons of carbs. It's got the aura flowing, I can feel it irradiating from my body. However... it's not helping my mental state at all.
Crazy case of body dysmorphia today. I'm becoming hyper-aware of fat pockets on my body. Like, I can FEEL them. It's driving me insane. This sub is driving me insane. I thought I was losing my mind last night. What part of the script am I resisting? The clearing? The self-validation stuff?
Almost quit subs altogether, but I'm going to push on. Hopefully, I'm very close to a breakthrough.
Crazy case of body dysmorphia today. I'm becoming hyper-aware of fat pockets on my body. Like, I can FEEL them. It's driving me insane. This sub is driving me insane. I thought I was losing my mind last night. What part of the script am I resisting? The clearing? The self-validation stuff?
Almost quit subs altogether, but I'm going to push on. Hopefully, I'm very close to a breakthrough.
