DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[eternity]

i'm starting to open up about my emotional state with the FWB from earlier this year -- let's call her L from now on... We're definitely what shannon refers to as Mirror Souls, and our relationship as of now has been mutually beneficial in so many levels, despite not being sexual as it was before. I told her about the identity crisis, about the new shit i'm starting to feel. She's a very perceptive person, and knows me to see sexual freedom as a positive thing, but she said tonight she sees me changing into being more sexually reserved. that caught me off guard. i'm either regressing to heal on the inside so that i can come back in a positive way, OR she's seeing me the way she wants to see me which is clouding her perception... which is possible if i'm becoming too sexy too fast for her to handle, considering she's strictly not wanting to date younger guys anymore (20 year age gap between her and myself)

anyway i don't know if i necessarily healed any from our conversation but she did pick my brain which allowed me to consciously see various things that are hidden in my subconscious that contribute to my belief systems.


so i do see sex as a physical, emotional, and spiritual act. ideally, abundant sexual relationships for me incorporate all 3 elements. not one night stands, not monogamous LTR's, but abundant sexal relationships -- now that'll be a satisfying life to live.

now to just get from here to there