10-08-2016, 07:38 PM
Quick notes:
IOIs are down. Or, maybe I'm not looking because I'm in that "IDGAF about women" state again.
My erection strength is becoming insane. I'm starting to get an erection quality I haven't had since I was in my peak state of fitness -- my "golden era," when I was practicing martial arts and biking 12 - 30 miles everyday. Now, it's possible that these insane boxing workouts are helping significantly, but either way, it's great.
I'm also much more wittier when dealing with women. Being much more playful. I had someone on Coffee Meets Bagel tell me today that she's never been more excited about meeting someone before. She's not super pretty, but she has an infectious smile and a nice personality. I'm being drawn to her. We'll call her "L," because I'm going to aggressively push for a Wednesday date with her. I used to do Tuesday... but I'm tired of missing boxing for women. So...
Anyway, she evokes the same feeling I had for #3, but NOT for "P." So, I'm beginning to recognize when my subconscious / intuition is informing me of potential compatibility. For example, there's another chick on CMB that I'm doing well with. She's absolutely adorable, but I'm not feeling that same pull. This must be OE or autopilot doing it's magic. See, here's a little confession, something I didn't want to admit: My instincts told me that "P" wasn't as innocent and kind as she looked. There were a few red flags that I ignored for the sake of doing it. I've gotta trust my instincts.
OE is pushing me into being healthier. Other than today (when I was stuck inside thanks to Matthew) and probably the next few days (thanks to crazy flooding from Matthew, I'm calling my backyard Lake chaosvrgn), I've completely avoided sugar and carbs. Eating semi clean. I'm not going on an aggressive cut right now, but between killing off sugar, eating lighter portions and these INSANE, INSANE boxing workouts (I'm thinking of competing in some amateur fights next year), I'm going to lose a ton of weight to bring out my MSI.
I must admit, I've grown a bit bored with v2.4. It's not like AM6, where every 32 days brought a new experience. Right now, it's just resistance --> day of being clear and euphoric --> resistance --> day of being clear and euphoric --> OOH CRAZY IOI!!! --> repeat. I'm telling myself that running subliminals are no different than practicing a martial art. It took me about 5 years to become mildly proficient in Karate. Many of those skills DID NOT translate to boxing, and now I'm starting all over again. It'll be a year of heavy training before I'm mildly proficient in boxing. Likewise, it could take a month or two to clear out a lot of psychological trauma that I have in regards to women. And man, it runs deep. There's somethings I'm starting to remember, things I did, things that happened to me, feelings, etc. that I think I'll have to take to the grave.
Honestly, I never knew how deep it ran. There was a time in AM6 when I wondered if I could maybe kinda be attracted to men. Then, those thoughts vanished, alongside some other weird feelings that went down that I'm just not going to mention. Seems to me that there's some serious hurts in regards to sexuality, so profound that my subconscious tried to turn me away from women rather than face that pain.
To me, that's just crazy. The things that's happened to me, I thought most men had experienced. Being cheated on. That girlfriend that became abusive because pegged you as a beta, even though you're just laid back, the one that tried to trap you. Shit seemed normal to me.
But that's where DMSI is really working it's magic. I've gotten to the point now where I'm not even going to entertain certain kinds of women. Rude, bitter, obnoxious -- not worth the time. The next time that happens, I'm simply walking out of the date and she'll be lucky if I don't stiff her with the bill.
Was talking to my female "friend" earlier. Told her about DMSI, because I was curious about her reaction. She said she didn't believe it, of course, but then said something quite illuminating (but expected). She said, if this thing ever works, she's going to be terrified of what it'll mean. For those of us in the know, we already get why she said that. It just made me chuckle. I told her that even if DMSI failed, the upcoming VR and Sex Bot revolution is going to effectively put an end to the modern rendition of feminism, which promotes a matriarchy rather than equal opportunity. You see, the moment a man can get 40% realistic sex from a sex bot, they'll have no reason to put up with a lot of the crap they do now and will opt-out of the dating game.
She got quiet for about a minute and simply said: "Fuck. I need to get married before then."
IOIs are down. Or, maybe I'm not looking because I'm in that "IDGAF about women" state again.
My erection strength is becoming insane. I'm starting to get an erection quality I haven't had since I was in my peak state of fitness -- my "golden era," when I was practicing martial arts and biking 12 - 30 miles everyday. Now, it's possible that these insane boxing workouts are helping significantly, but either way, it's great.
I'm also much more wittier when dealing with women. Being much more playful. I had someone on Coffee Meets Bagel tell me today that she's never been more excited about meeting someone before. She's not super pretty, but she has an infectious smile and a nice personality. I'm being drawn to her. We'll call her "L," because I'm going to aggressively push for a Wednesday date with her. I used to do Tuesday... but I'm tired of missing boxing for women. So...
Anyway, she evokes the same feeling I had for #3, but NOT for "P." So, I'm beginning to recognize when my subconscious / intuition is informing me of potential compatibility. For example, there's another chick on CMB that I'm doing well with. She's absolutely adorable, but I'm not feeling that same pull. This must be OE or autopilot doing it's magic. See, here's a little confession, something I didn't want to admit: My instincts told me that "P" wasn't as innocent and kind as she looked. There were a few red flags that I ignored for the sake of doing it. I've gotta trust my instincts.
OE is pushing me into being healthier. Other than today (when I was stuck inside thanks to Matthew) and probably the next few days (thanks to crazy flooding from Matthew, I'm calling my backyard Lake chaosvrgn), I've completely avoided sugar and carbs. Eating semi clean. I'm not going on an aggressive cut right now, but between killing off sugar, eating lighter portions and these INSANE, INSANE boxing workouts (I'm thinking of competing in some amateur fights next year), I'm going to lose a ton of weight to bring out my MSI.
I must admit, I've grown a bit bored with v2.4. It's not like AM6, where every 32 days brought a new experience. Right now, it's just resistance --> day of being clear and euphoric --> resistance --> day of being clear and euphoric --> OOH CRAZY IOI!!! --> repeat. I'm telling myself that running subliminals are no different than practicing a martial art. It took me about 5 years to become mildly proficient in Karate. Many of those skills DID NOT translate to boxing, and now I'm starting all over again. It'll be a year of heavy training before I'm mildly proficient in boxing. Likewise, it could take a month or two to clear out a lot of psychological trauma that I have in regards to women. And man, it runs deep. There's somethings I'm starting to remember, things I did, things that happened to me, feelings, etc. that I think I'll have to take to the grave.
Honestly, I never knew how deep it ran. There was a time in AM6 when I wondered if I could maybe kinda be attracted to men. Then, those thoughts vanished, alongside some other weird feelings that went down that I'm just not going to mention. Seems to me that there's some serious hurts in regards to sexuality, so profound that my subconscious tried to turn me away from women rather than face that pain.
To me, that's just crazy. The things that's happened to me, I thought most men had experienced. Being cheated on. That girlfriend that became abusive because pegged you as a beta, even though you're just laid back, the one that tried to trap you. Shit seemed normal to me.
But that's where DMSI is really working it's magic. I've gotten to the point now where I'm not even going to entertain certain kinds of women. Rude, bitter, obnoxious -- not worth the time. The next time that happens, I'm simply walking out of the date and she'll be lucky if I don't stiff her with the bill.
Was talking to my female "friend" earlier. Told her about DMSI, because I was curious about her reaction. She said she didn't believe it, of course, but then said something quite illuminating (but expected). She said, if this thing ever works, she's going to be terrified of what it'll mean. For those of us in the know, we already get why she said that. It just made me chuckle. I told her that even if DMSI failed, the upcoming VR and Sex Bot revolution is going to effectively put an end to the modern rendition of feminism, which promotes a matriarchy rather than equal opportunity. You see, the moment a man can get 40% realistic sex from a sex bot, they'll have no reason to put up with a lot of the crap they do now and will opt-out of the dating game.
She got quiet for about a minute and simply said: "Fuck. I need to get married before then."
