10-06-2016, 06:19 PM
E2 is pulling up a lot of anger. It needs to be expressed or felt, not pushed away like I usually do. A lot of it is just left over from stuff in my past that I guess I never processed. I haven't been good with anger in general. I tricked myself into believing I could just let it go and be calm. But I just repressed it and felt guilt over having it. Two terrible things.
I'm learning more and more with E2 that my desire to handle emotions in a mature and rational manner is what holds me back the most. The stuck energy of them is pretty much an echo of my past self that needs validation. Getting too logical about this stuff is what prevents the actual emotional release. I want to be all stoic and crap instead of letting go and giving up control.
On the plus side I guess this is all really good fuel for my creative pursuits with music.
I'm learning more and more with E2 that my desire to handle emotions in a mature and rational manner is what holds me back the most. The stuck energy of them is pretty much an echo of my past self that needs validation. Getting too logical about this stuff is what prevents the actual emotional release. I want to be all stoic and crap instead of letting go and giving up control.
On the plus side I guess this is all really good fuel for my creative pursuits with music.
