10-05-2016, 12:01 PM
Damn, had a bit of a cathartic moment today. I can't tell if alpha male programming is still in me or what, but lately I want to get in touch with my masculinity. And I don't mean aggressive stuff, sports, having sex with tons of women, etc. I want to connect to that part of me that is my nature. The part that's bashed in modern society and young boys growing up are made to feel ashamed of. I never liked masculinity growing up because I never had a good role model for it. I was never taught masculinity beyond all those stupid surface level behaviors that are portrayed in our fucked up media.
If I had alpha 6.0 I'd probably run it. But right now I only have 5.0 and I'm not going back in tech after I've experienced what E2 can do. So I'm gonna keep riding E2 out and see where it goes. Maybe I won't even need any alpha male programming, the way I see it when you clear all the junk that holds you back you're free to be however you want to be. I've always felt that underneath all my issues and frightened behavior is a person with strong ideals and a natural leadership quality. It's just getting to that diamond covered in all the dirt and mud.
If I had alpha 6.0 I'd probably run it. But right now I only have 5.0 and I'm not going back in tech after I've experienced what E2 can do. So I'm gonna keep riding E2 out and see where it goes. Maybe I won't even need any alpha male programming, the way I see it when you clear all the junk that holds you back you're free to be however you want to be. I've always felt that underneath all my issues and frightened behavior is a person with strong ideals and a natural leadership quality. It's just getting to that diamond covered in all the dirt and mud.
