10-04-2016, 07:21 AM
Day 31.
Woke up with intense tension headache. We know what that means. RESISTANCE. The depression and irritation will soon follow. This is getting crazy. I've been in a state of semi-resistance for about three weeks now. Probably more -- the first week, I was hit with constant euphoria and the DMSI morphine drip, which sadly, has now passed. I'm wondering if that was the interaction between v2.3 and v2.4. On the flipside, I feel hyper-sexual today. Got the urge to message dirty things to chicks on Tinder. Feels like the autopilot is guiding me to do such things.
Also, manifestations are high. Getting a lot of "wild child" women hitting me up on OkCupid. I've come to the conclusion that I may be resisting DMSI because I'm not really that interested in just sex right now... feels like I want a relationship. However, that may be neediness being ripped out of my psyche, because at the same time, I value my freedom so much that I can't fathom being in a relationship.
So for now, gonna keep running v2.4 and see what happens. Date tomorrow with "P." Very beautiful, sexy woman from The Gambia.
Woke up with intense tension headache. We know what that means. RESISTANCE. The depression and irritation will soon follow. This is getting crazy. I've been in a state of semi-resistance for about three weeks now. Probably more -- the first week, I was hit with constant euphoria and the DMSI morphine drip, which sadly, has now passed. I'm wondering if that was the interaction between v2.3 and v2.4. On the flipside, I feel hyper-sexual today. Got the urge to message dirty things to chicks on Tinder. Feels like the autopilot is guiding me to do such things.
Also, manifestations are high. Getting a lot of "wild child" women hitting me up on OkCupid. I've come to the conclusion that I may be resisting DMSI because I'm not really that interested in just sex right now... feels like I want a relationship. However, that may be neediness being ripped out of my psyche, because at the same time, I value my freedom so much that I can't fathom being in a relationship.
So for now, gonna keep running v2.4 and see what happens. Date tomorrow with "P." Very beautiful, sexy woman from The Gambia.
