(10-02-2016, 01:20 PM)heavysm Wrote:(10-02-2016, 04:53 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: I feel almost zero motivation to write. But I will say this, I'm extremely grateful for E2. I'm making my way into politics and I'm facing loads and loads of negativity. (or at least I can still find reasons to be negative)
The situation is... well... "disgusting" wouldn't be too strong of a word. Yet that's only true when I don't get to have enough exposure to E2. This sub just keeps me in check in a blissful state of love.
I distinctly recall the drop in motivation while using E2. The healing was deep and lasting, but that blissful state was almost holding me back. At the very end of my run I had to say goodbye to the zen-like state of being. Us ambitious folk need to keep pumping and evolving, after all.
Don't get me wrong, though. I don't regret my E2 run whatsoever. It helped me clear out so much crap it's ridiculous. But from what Shannon has stated, that deep state of contentedness and serenity which creates the lack of motivation to be productive was done on purpose. I think of it like being in bed to get over illness; you're not likely to get anything done while recuperating, but that's sort of the point.
Glad to hear you're experiencing some deep change on it, though.
Thanks! That's very close to what I'm experiencing too. I tried to battle this, but well... it's just stronger than me. Not really stronger, I could have just resisted E2, but there would be no point in running it then.
Actually, the decline in productivity I can handle... I've never been *that* productive anyway, but the emotional vulnerability is taking away my edge in contract negotiations too. Empathy can be good for customer relations, but not when taken to this extreme, lol.
I've been thinking about running either DMSI or BASE stage 7 soon (not much else to consider). BASE is the obvious choice, but I have a feeling DMSI can open some doors business-wise. My BASE programming feels to be solid, so I'm not sure what stage 7 can contribute apart from some temporary productivity boost and aura change.
At least until my candidate's presidential campaign is over in 5-6 weeks, I'm staying on E2 though. The idealistic drive to help make him my president actually resonates with E2's love flooding quite well, lol. Not to mention how much I'm enjoying the healing.
By the way, I forgot to thank you (I think) for bringing Eben's Self Made Wealth to my attention in your journal. Generally he's way too wordy for my taste, but I found an acquaintance has gone through the complete course and took some notes... they were just what the doctor ordered in terms of money mindset. Thanks!
