Achieving Nirvana w/ DMSI V2.4 5.5G - Rape Me, My Friends(I'm not the only one!)

[4Kingdoms]

I'm laying in bed last night, almost asleep, and suddenly this girl from my college algebra class pops into my head. From 2005! This girl was pretty dumb, not that cute, but had an awesome body and I thought she was funny. Furthermore, she thought I was sexy-as-hell. She dropped so many in-your-face hints it was ridiculous.

I ended up at her place one night after she asked for my phone number. We watched episode after episode of Friends on the couch together. Her suddenly roommate disappeared. I was in total fear. We were alone. She got tired of waiting for me to make a move, so she made the move. We made out for awhile. Then, she says I can stay over. I pull the "Oh, no, I really should be going." I remember thinking in my head that gentlemen don't sleep over the first time when they like someone. What a dumbass I was. I still have guilt and shame over that. Crazy.

Now I'm thinking of the other times I blew opportunities like that...I can't believe how many there were. This is the type of stuff (fear and faulty beliefs) that keeps people from getting laid when they are given blatant opportunities. This is the reason the clearing modules need to be there for the guys running DMSI that will have clear opportunities they may not capitalize on. It's also one of the main reasons I'm running it. I can't carry around that kind of baggage for the rest of my life, regardless that I'm in a committed marriage. I want a life of no regrets, no shame, no guilt, and this journey is part of meeting that goal.

This is a truly inspiring post because it rings true with how I reacted when I was presented this opportunity as a young man!!

When I was 21 y/o I took a girl to a dinner theater in the skybox for her birthday. It was supposed to fit a group of people and it was just the two of us. She was impressed that I went through great lengths for her birthday.

Mistake #1...
Her: I can't believe you did this for me!!
Me: Oh, this skybox is meant to be shared by a group of people. I didn't think we'd be alone.

We watched the play was served dinner and I took her straight home. Got a kiss on the lips at the front door and...
Mistake #2...
Her: So 4K.... Do you want to come inside?
Me: No, it's 12:30 in the morning. I really should be going.

RT just like you said, "There were so many opportunities like this that I passed on!!"
When I heard 3.0.1 was going to be one with and one without healing, I decided to jump on the one without. Now that I read your story and remembered my past, I'm sticking with the healing!!