I'm laying in bed last night, almost asleep, and suddenly this girl from my college algebra class pops into my head. From 2005! This girl was pretty dumb, not that cute, but had an awesome body and I thought she was funny. Furthermore, she thought I was sexy-as-hell. She dropped so many in-your-face hints it was ridiculous.
I ended up at her place one night after she asked for my phone number. We watched episode after episode of Friends on the couch together. Her roommate suddenly disappeared. I was in total fear. We were alone. She got tired of waiting for me to make a move, so she made the move. We made out for awhile. Then, she says I can stay over. I pull the "Oh, no, I really should be going." I remember thinking in my head that gentlemen don't sleep over the first time when they like someone. What a dumbass I was. I still have guilt and shame over that. Crazy.
Now I'm thinking of the other times I blew opportunities like that...I can't believe how many there were. This is the type of stuff (fear and faulty beliefs) that keeps people from getting laid when they are given blatant opportunities. This is the reason the clearing modules need to be there for the guys running DMSI that will have clear opportunities they may not capitalize on. It's also one of the main reasons I'm running it. I can't carry around that kind of baggage for the rest of my life, regardless that I'm in a committed marriage. I want a life of no regrets, no shame, no guilt, and this journey is part of meeting that goal.
I ended up at her place one night after she asked for my phone number. We watched episode after episode of Friends on the couch together. Her roommate suddenly disappeared. I was in total fear. We were alone. She got tired of waiting for me to make a move, so she made the move. We made out for awhile. Then, she says I can stay over. I pull the "Oh, no, I really should be going." I remember thinking in my head that gentlemen don't sleep over the first time when they like someone. What a dumbass I was. I still have guilt and shame over that. Crazy.
Now I'm thinking of the other times I blew opportunities like that...I can't believe how many there were. This is the type of stuff (fear and faulty beliefs) that keeps people from getting laid when they are given blatant opportunities. This is the reason the clearing modules need to be there for the guys running DMSI that will have clear opportunities they may not capitalize on. It's also one of the main reasons I'm running it. I can't carry around that kind of baggage for the rest of my life, regardless that I'm in a committed marriage. I want a life of no regrets, no shame, no guilt, and this journey is part of meeting that goal.
