09-27-2016, 08:52 AM
So, that date was a bust. Didn't really feel ANY attraction. She isn't as pretty as her pictures, and is fatter than she seems in pics. Her personality is nice, but we had no chemistry.
Interestingly enough, a couple hours before I met her, I get a text from the other girl asking to meet tonight. So I said ya cool. So I went on two dates today. Second one was dope. Free spirited girl, loads of attraction, loads of fun. Hand holding, kissing. She was dtf too. She asked how I would bring someone back to the place I was staying at. I said I wouldn't, as it would be disrespectful to my friend who is letting me stay at his spare room on the roof. That's where I f****ed up. I should have said I would bring them to a hotel. Lol. Anyway she wants to meet tomorrow too. I don't think it will go down, I might have blown my chance with her. But we will see.
The idgaf is strong. I feel like it hindered me today, on both dates. I definitely have self cock blocking tendencies that the sub needs more time to work on.
I didn't feel the aura project. I didn't feel autopilot. I even got major disrespected from the guy I got a train ticket from. He made fun of me for not reading the signs to get where I need to get. I told him the ridiculing is unnecessary.
I actually kind of feel sad or depressed. Like I'm crashing from a high. I only slept 2 hrs in the past 48, so that might contribute to it. But it's likely resistance.
Whatever, lol. I'm in a f*** it I'm over it mood, for no apparent reason at all lol
Interestingly enough, a couple hours before I met her, I get a text from the other girl asking to meet tonight. So I said ya cool. So I went on two dates today. Second one was dope. Free spirited girl, loads of attraction, loads of fun. Hand holding, kissing. She was dtf too. She asked how I would bring someone back to the place I was staying at. I said I wouldn't, as it would be disrespectful to my friend who is letting me stay at his spare room on the roof. That's where I f****ed up. I should have said I would bring them to a hotel. Lol. Anyway she wants to meet tomorrow too. I don't think it will go down, I might have blown my chance with her. But we will see.
The idgaf is strong. I feel like it hindered me today, on both dates. I definitely have self cock blocking tendencies that the sub needs more time to work on.
I didn't feel the aura project. I didn't feel autopilot. I even got major disrespected from the guy I got a train ticket from. He made fun of me for not reading the signs to get where I need to get. I told him the ridiculing is unnecessary.
I actually kind of feel sad or depressed. Like I'm crashing from a high. I only slept 2 hrs in the past 48, so that might contribute to it. But it's likely resistance.
Whatever, lol. I'm in a f*** it I'm over it mood, for no apparent reason at all lol
