More resistance this morning. Melancholy-weepy type. Wondering why I'm wasting my time with women. Lots of resentment. A female friend of mine that was broke and living with her dad at 34 recently told me that she's had three boyfriends in the last nine months. I mean, wealthy, good looking guys. Pissed me off. If the situation were reversed, men would be looked at as losers.
Now, I don't mind working hard -- I do it for myself, for my kid and to fulfill my purpose. My irritation is with the fact that she said it with such obliviousness to the pain we endure as men everyday. Constantly having to perform to attract women like her, who provide little to no value to society. And when you look around and see so many women acting like this, you literally begin to think "what's the point?"
I'd buy a subliminal designed to suppress sexual urges, free me from this psychological burden so I can focus solely on what makes me happy -- business, boxing and traveling.
Strong urges to quit DMSI and run AM6 again, or some other sub that doesn't involve women. Oddly enough, there's a slight urge to run AYPG or the Perfect Financially Wealthy Lover one. I'm particularly interested in the latter. Seems like women would benefit more from that one. When I first saw it, I cracked up -- said it was the gold diggin' sub. I wonder how men would benefit from it? A sugar mama? A business investor with benefits? lol.
Anyway, the resistance is becoming cyclical. Exactly every two days or so. Could be by design. It isn't terrible today. I'm motivated to work on my business and go to boxing... kinda. Sometimes, resistance just takes the life out of me and I don't want to do anything but watch old episodes of SVU and Catfish on Hulu.
Everything about the sub is becoming "normalized." At first, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to handle v2.4. It was REALLY, REALLY rough on the body in the beginning. Yeah, I was getting the DMSI Morphine Drip, but I could still feel the tiredness and the heaviness beneath it. There was still a lot of tension in my body. The aura would almost burn my skin. Now, I can still feel the aura when it projects, but only when I'm looking for it. Otherwise, it just feels like a natural biological process -- that I have this enhanced aura. I'm also not getting any major, super noticeable IOIs. I think. It dawned on me that the IOIs are happening so much that they've become normal and I don't consciously perceive them.
Like other people, I'm thinking about women less and less, particularly on my non-resistance days. On those days, I'm in an awesome flow state. Money, abundance and power just flows into my life. Yesterday, I took a picture with one of the biggest names in IM. HE posted it to Facebook. Suddenly, I had an influx of new friends, including the chick from the event. Fucking bottom feeders. When I was at the event, many of these people kinda blew me off. Now, since they know that I'm familiar enough with this guy to eat lunch with them, they suddenly wanna be buddy-buddy.
In this quest for money and power, I feel like I may lose my humanity. DMSI is enhancing my intuition, focusing my thoughts... making me aware of humanity's deep, inherent amoral nature. It feels like I'm staring at the sun and I can't look away.
But even if I could, I wouldn't. I'm gonna continue to let the flames of truth turn to me to ash.
EDIT: By the way, had my first zombie dream last night. Zombies were eating everything up in the damn world and I was trying to mobilize my family, find a safe hideout. They kept ignoring me, worrying about what they were gonna eat for dinner. I ended up getting eaten in the end because of their idiocy.
Now, I don't mind working hard -- I do it for myself, for my kid and to fulfill my purpose. My irritation is with the fact that she said it with such obliviousness to the pain we endure as men everyday. Constantly having to perform to attract women like her, who provide little to no value to society. And when you look around and see so many women acting like this, you literally begin to think "what's the point?"
I'd buy a subliminal designed to suppress sexual urges, free me from this psychological burden so I can focus solely on what makes me happy -- business, boxing and traveling.
Strong urges to quit DMSI and run AM6 again, or some other sub that doesn't involve women. Oddly enough, there's a slight urge to run AYPG or the Perfect Financially Wealthy Lover one. I'm particularly interested in the latter. Seems like women would benefit more from that one. When I first saw it, I cracked up -- said it was the gold diggin' sub. I wonder how men would benefit from it? A sugar mama? A business investor with benefits? lol.
Anyway, the resistance is becoming cyclical. Exactly every two days or so. Could be by design. It isn't terrible today. I'm motivated to work on my business and go to boxing... kinda. Sometimes, resistance just takes the life out of me and I don't want to do anything but watch old episodes of SVU and Catfish on Hulu.
Everything about the sub is becoming "normalized." At first, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to handle v2.4. It was REALLY, REALLY rough on the body in the beginning. Yeah, I was getting the DMSI Morphine Drip, but I could still feel the tiredness and the heaviness beneath it. There was still a lot of tension in my body. The aura would almost burn my skin. Now, I can still feel the aura when it projects, but only when I'm looking for it. Otherwise, it just feels like a natural biological process -- that I have this enhanced aura. I'm also not getting any major, super noticeable IOIs. I think. It dawned on me that the IOIs are happening so much that they've become normal and I don't consciously perceive them.
Like other people, I'm thinking about women less and less, particularly on my non-resistance days. On those days, I'm in an awesome flow state. Money, abundance and power just flows into my life. Yesterday, I took a picture with one of the biggest names in IM. HE posted it to Facebook. Suddenly, I had an influx of new friends, including the chick from the event. Fucking bottom feeders. When I was at the event, many of these people kinda blew me off. Now, since they know that I'm familiar enough with this guy to eat lunch with them, they suddenly wanna be buddy-buddy.
In this quest for money and power, I feel like I may lose my humanity. DMSI is enhancing my intuition, focusing my thoughts... making me aware of humanity's deep, inherent amoral nature. It feels like I'm staring at the sun and I can't look away.
But even if I could, I wouldn't. I'm gonna continue to let the flames of truth turn to me to ash.
EDIT: By the way, had my first zombie dream last night. Zombies were eating everything up in the damn world and I was trying to mobilize my family, find a safe hideout. They kept ignoring me, worrying about what they were gonna eat for dinner. I ended up getting eaten in the end because of their idiocy.
