09-19-2016, 09:36 AM
(09-19-2016, 09:17 AM)Shannon Wrote:(09-19-2016, 07:02 AM)RTBoss Wrote: I get a lot of "What's the point?" type thoughts. It must be some type of fear. It's like my subconscious doesn't really want to find out if it can execute the script fully and get a woman I'm genuinely attracted to initiate a sexual relationship with me.
I'm a very loyal person - loyal friend, family member, and certainly loyal to my wife. I can't help but think that's a lot of the issue, so I'm not only NOT motivated to go anywhere, but I'm actually MOTIVATED to stay home if I can. If I had a job outside of my home, I'd have to go. But I literally have nothing that forces me out. I need to mow my lawn, and I don't even want to do that! Maybe it's because I have *two* neighbors (married) that I'm attracted to?
This sounds like the realization that sooner or later, it's going to work. And you realizing the consequences of that fact. Otherwise, why have this response?
Sure, makes sense.
My end goal is to heal so that I accept myself as being extremely sexually attractive, rid myself of feeling the need to have women's attention as much as I currently do, increase the quality of my marital sex life (check!), and have at least one experience where I have an opportunity to say, "I'm sincerely flattered that you want to fuck my brains out, but I'm a married man. Have a nice day!"
