09-15-2016, 10:09 AM
Giving Reality Transurfing another read. Felt drawn to it for some reason. I think the first time I read it I just focused on finishing it and didn't take the time to actually digest what I was reading. That happens with a lot of things in my life, thinking that if I finish something it will magically sit there in my head rather than taking however long it takes to fully comprehend it.
I notice I have a habit of looking outward for confirmation of how reality is. But the truth is it's different for everyone isn't it? If you talk to a guy who hates his job and struggles to find purpose and passion in his life, that's just one reality for someone. Another guy loves his job or has achieved his dreams. It seems to me I stuck with the mentality of everything being impossible or not achievable because it made me feel better because it hid that fear of failure. So when people achieve what they want in life I used to consider them lucky or that I was just too far gone to ever be as good as them.
You know I used to get really pissed when people would say that you choose happiness in life or choose to be successful. It seemed to oversimplify everything. But the more I've grown I've realized that's all life really is, a series of choices you make. Even though there are negative events that are thrown your way or circumstances you can't control, you can still choose how you respond to them.
Which made me realize, this whole healing business. It's really just about choosing not to engage in those self destructive patterns anymore and letting them go. It's really simple to solve all our problems, but hard to follow through with it. I've been feeling like I'm able to let go of some of this stuff more lately instead of getting stuck in it. It's made me realize my whole concept of what healing involves was wrong and that's what caused all the painful stuff being brought to the surface.
I notice I have a habit of looking outward for confirmation of how reality is. But the truth is it's different for everyone isn't it? If you talk to a guy who hates his job and struggles to find purpose and passion in his life, that's just one reality for someone. Another guy loves his job or has achieved his dreams. It seems to me I stuck with the mentality of everything being impossible or not achievable because it made me feel better because it hid that fear of failure. So when people achieve what they want in life I used to consider them lucky or that I was just too far gone to ever be as good as them.
You know I used to get really pissed when people would say that you choose happiness in life or choose to be successful. It seemed to oversimplify everything. But the more I've grown I've realized that's all life really is, a series of choices you make. Even though there are negative events that are thrown your way or circumstances you can't control, you can still choose how you respond to them.
Which made me realize, this whole healing business. It's really just about choosing not to engage in those self destructive patterns anymore and letting them go. It's really simple to solve all our problems, but hard to follow through with it. I've been feeling like I'm able to let go of some of this stuff more lately instead of getting stuck in it. It's made me realize my whole concept of what healing involves was wrong and that's what caused all the painful stuff being brought to the surface.
