09-12-2016, 09:15 AM
Day 8 on 2.4
Sooo... been running 5 loops last night while sleeping (or trying to). Had several dreams (I remember waking up from them at least four times, and one kept me awake for like 2 hours afterwards) - the memory of them is fading, but I remember two of them had me killing someone. Hmmm... that better had been Mister Approach Anxiety and Mister You-dont-get-an-aura-dude.
I'm feeling like sleepwalking the whole day as that night was anything but restfull, and I barely functioned properly at work.
But, it seems there was some kind of breakthrough in internal changes. Not entirely sure how to put it into words, but behind the mindboggling tiredness I'm feeling very much at ease with myself today. A feeling of freedom, of being able to achieve whatever I want? I also seem to have lost the doubts that I could have the women I want in my life - those doubts have been lingering in the background all the time. Been checking out women much more openly today than usual, and when I did I seemed to appreciate their beauty much more than I had before. And also... I'm much more horny than I've been lately.
So finally something bigger is going on here with the sub, at least regarding internal changes.
Outward signs aka aura? Maybe subtle signs. I had the impression of getting status hits from men - like people at work who usually are just silently passing by were greeting me. The security guys in the supermarket greeting me to. Possibly also a bit more attention from women, but honestly I'm not really sure there. I'm not that bad at reading the signs after looking for them in 10+ years of pheromone testing - if they were there they were very subtle.
Sooo... been running 5 loops last night while sleeping (or trying to). Had several dreams (I remember waking up from them at least four times, and one kept me awake for like 2 hours afterwards) - the memory of them is fading, but I remember two of them had me killing someone. Hmmm... that better had been Mister Approach Anxiety and Mister You-dont-get-an-aura-dude.
I'm feeling like sleepwalking the whole day as that night was anything but restfull, and I barely functioned properly at work.But, it seems there was some kind of breakthrough in internal changes. Not entirely sure how to put it into words, but behind the mindboggling tiredness I'm feeling very much at ease with myself today. A feeling of freedom, of being able to achieve whatever I want? I also seem to have lost the doubts that I could have the women I want in my life - those doubts have been lingering in the background all the time. Been checking out women much more openly today than usual, and when I did I seemed to appreciate their beauty much more than I had before. And also... I'm much more horny than I've been lately.
So finally something bigger is going on here with the sub, at least regarding internal changes.
Outward signs aka aura? Maybe subtle signs. I had the impression of getting status hits from men - like people at work who usually are just silently passing by were greeting me. The security guys in the supermarket greeting me to. Possibly also a bit more attention from women, but honestly I'm not really sure there. I'm not that bad at reading the signs after looking for them in 10+ years of pheromone testing - if they were there they were very subtle.
