09-10-2016, 10:19 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-10-2016, 10:20 PM by hsindermann.)
Day 7 on V2.4
Okay, apparently I just had to complain.
It's really strange, I indeed did not hear the faint voices in the background anymore, making me think there might have been nothing on the track. I remember putting my ears against the speakers to check - did not hear them. Now suddenly, I can hear them again. Is is possible this is some weird kind of resistance as well - my mind playing tricks on me, making me think there is nothing and through that trying to make me stop listening? Weird...
At the same time now I can feel that there's inner changes happening again, but in a (and here I have to agree to the description mentioned by 4Kingdoms) smooth way. I cannot even really describe what I feel changing - I feel something's happening, but cannot put my fingers on it. Dreams are coming back. I usually cannot remember me dreaming at night - I only do when a sub is running that's causing changes in the background. I also started remembering occasions long forgotten, when I was totally messing up with a girl or failed to make a move - like last night remembered one occasion from... 10 years ago? Only met her once in my life on a party, we left together early, were getting along perfectly, aaand... me was stupid enough to board a different train home, did not even ask for a number. Pffff... would not happen anymore today!
No clear sign of an aura building still, but I've gotten my faith back that it's doing it's thing.
Okay, apparently I just had to complain.
It's really strange, I indeed did not hear the faint voices in the background anymore, making me think there might have been nothing on the track. I remember putting my ears against the speakers to check - did not hear them. Now suddenly, I can hear them again. Is is possible this is some weird kind of resistance as well - my mind playing tricks on me, making me think there is nothing and through that trying to make me stop listening? Weird...At the same time now I can feel that there's inner changes happening again, but in a (and here I have to agree to the description mentioned by 4Kingdoms) smooth way. I cannot even really describe what I feel changing - I feel something's happening, but cannot put my fingers on it. Dreams are coming back. I usually cannot remember me dreaming at night - I only do when a sub is running that's causing changes in the background. I also started remembering occasions long forgotten, when I was totally messing up with a girl or failed to make a move - like last night remembered one occasion from... 10 years ago? Only met her once in my life on a party, we left together early, were getting along perfectly, aaand... me was stupid enough to board a different train home, did not even ask for a number. Pffff... would not happen anymore today!
No clear sign of an aura building still, but I've gotten my faith back that it's doing it's thing.
