09-08-2016, 11:18 AM
Back and forth with these journal entries. But I think I was just hitting on some resistance and fear with those last few posts. Actually I know I was, there isn't a doubt in my mind.
The emotional pain is only bad if I engage in it, get stuck in it. I don't have to do that. From now on my focus is on letting go, that's it. Not where it came from, how much it troubles me, or how badly it's screwing up my life. My continual error with this sub is not carrying out the primary instructions of letting go of all this stuff. Instead I get caught up in the details too much and get sucked back into it. That's pretty much all my doing and having a poor idea of what it means to actually go about healing stuff.
Maybe it's just me, but given enough time to think about this stuff and involve myself in it too much I start making up reasons why I can't let it go or move on from it. Then I'll weave a story so deep and compelling it takes a while to pull myself out of it again.
The emotional pain is only bad if I engage in it, get stuck in it. I don't have to do that. From now on my focus is on letting go, that's it. Not where it came from, how much it troubles me, or how badly it's screwing up my life. My continual error with this sub is not carrying out the primary instructions of letting go of all this stuff. Instead I get caught up in the details too much and get sucked back into it. That's pretty much all my doing and having a poor idea of what it means to actually go about healing stuff.
Maybe it's just me, but given enough time to think about this stuff and involve myself in it too much I start making up reasons why I can't let it go or move on from it. Then I'll weave a story so deep and compelling it takes a while to pull myself out of it again.
