09-04-2016, 03:06 PM
day 167 - pleasantries
I sometimes leave the sub on us for longer than 21 hours. that's when I feel emotionally weak and coincidentally post sometimes. I feel sad and anxious, depressed... I know I have to run through these emotions to reach the good stuff...like crapping out the spicy wing challenge I took when I was drunk...
you know, it hurts for a while but once you hit the cooling point its like ahhhhh....
I meditated today. I am meditating more, trying to keep it daily.
I weighed about 256 pounds when I started and now I weigh 225 pounds. don't know how many stone that is.
I have been jumping rope at least 3 times a week for at least 20 minutes, not straight through but I try and keep the rests short as I know its cardio and I gotta keep my heartrate up. when I first started life tune up I could only jump rope for 3 minutes at a slow pace, huffing and puffing.
now I can go at a boxer's pace, just need to work on my rhythm and footwork.
I will be posting a video when I get the footwork down.
My diet isn't strict. for a while it was no carbs w/ one cheat day a week but now without any work and no girlfriend, I've turned to food for relief.
I am not sad or depressed at the moment. just being. I had a nudge to go see a comedy show but I threw my back out and have chosen to stay in on a gorgeous day.
Big Picture. think big. step out of my body and look at the world and all its glory. my life's purpose. I don't remember what my personality type I am but I know I'm a promoter type, social butterfly.
I feel like I am just rambling now so I will stop.
I have decided on getting an attract your perfect sub for my next sub. I feel ready for a girlfriend that could be my wife. maybe attract your perfect wife?
I still wish the 5g was a romance and not sexual.
I sometimes leave the sub on us for longer than 21 hours. that's when I feel emotionally weak and coincidentally post sometimes. I feel sad and anxious, depressed... I know I have to run through these emotions to reach the good stuff...like crapping out the spicy wing challenge I took when I was drunk...
you know, it hurts for a while but once you hit the cooling point its like ahhhhh....
I meditated today. I am meditating more, trying to keep it daily.
I weighed about 256 pounds when I started and now I weigh 225 pounds. don't know how many stone that is.
I have been jumping rope at least 3 times a week for at least 20 minutes, not straight through but I try and keep the rests short as I know its cardio and I gotta keep my heartrate up. when I first started life tune up I could only jump rope for 3 minutes at a slow pace, huffing and puffing.
now I can go at a boxer's pace, just need to work on my rhythm and footwork.
I will be posting a video when I get the footwork down.
My diet isn't strict. for a while it was no carbs w/ one cheat day a week but now without any work and no girlfriend, I've turned to food for relief.
I am not sad or depressed at the moment. just being. I had a nudge to go see a comedy show but I threw my back out and have chosen to stay in on a gorgeous day.
Big Picture. think big. step out of my body and look at the world and all its glory. my life's purpose. I don't remember what my personality type I am but I know I'm a promoter type, social butterfly.
I feel like I am just rambling now so I will stop.
I have decided on getting an attract your perfect sub for my next sub. I feel ready for a girlfriend that could be my wife. maybe attract your perfect wife?
I still wish the 5g was a romance and not sexual.
