Avenus45 E2 Journal

[DisneylandUSA]

Im keeping an offline journal that is more detailed but I will try to keep it as detailed as I can.
Day 1

- Within the first 10-20 mins, I felt like I wanted to commit suicide. it was fleeting and was gone minutes later.

-One dream I had is very telling to what to how I felt about my ex. I am still hurt and angry about her.

-Had a dream about this one girl last night. The entire scene depicted almost pure unconditional love and it enraged me. Its almost like I wanted that type of love from someone else. I wish I had that…….

Day 3
-On a good day, im hustling in my job, working for a real estate agent, trying to be more active in school social scene, my grades, and hobbies. On a bad day, I feel super lonely and I tend to be very reactive to what everyone says.

- A professor indirectly inspired me to basically to not give a **** and live my life as fully as possible because of how often underestimate myself and how awesome the human potential is.

-Still get residual MSI V2.3 iois and what not.

Sounds like things/issues came up to the surface. Helplessness/hopeless feelings come out on E2 for myself when it is digging deep on issues. Deep Breaths, Deep Breaths when Anxiety kicks in :angel: