Been thinking since Stage 5 about what to do next. I had it in my head that I would run SM3 again to make it a year of SM, just like I did AM6 back to back. I've also considered running DMSI come September.
So here's the deal. I've noticed internal change with SM and I want to keep the ball rolling. I want to reinforce and amplify things like: feeling sexual, feeling entitled, feeling less shame, willingness to put myself out there, etc. Have I gotten laid? No. But the opportunities are there. SM has gotten me to the point where my hangups are bearable, largely because I know I'm working on them, and I don't believe I should suffer abstinence while I'm waiting for my dick to grow 2 inches. But that's hot air until I actually go out there and fuck.
In short, I've had 6 months to familiarize myself with what SM has to offer, and I can only benefit from running it again. DMSI seems superficial by comparison, and that's not to say it's ineffective. I wonder if DMSI will get me that up front sexual experience that I need to crush a lot of the crap that SM is working on more subtly. That state shifting is hard to pass up, and I think that seeing myself succeed in a different state will open up doors for me mentally.
Your thoughts?
So here's the deal. I've noticed internal change with SM and I want to keep the ball rolling. I want to reinforce and amplify things like: feeling sexual, feeling entitled, feeling less shame, willingness to put myself out there, etc. Have I gotten laid? No. But the opportunities are there. SM has gotten me to the point where my hangups are bearable, largely because I know I'm working on them, and I don't believe I should suffer abstinence while I'm waiting for my dick to grow 2 inches. But that's hot air until I actually go out there and fuck.
In short, I've had 6 months to familiarize myself with what SM has to offer, and I can only benefit from running it again. DMSI seems superficial by comparison, and that's not to say it's ineffective. I wonder if DMSI will get me that up front sexual experience that I need to crush a lot of the crap that SM is working on more subtly. That state shifting is hard to pass up, and I think that seeing myself succeed in a different state will open up doors for me mentally.
Your thoughts?
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
