08-16-2016, 07:52 AM
(08-16-2016, 07:33 AM)mat422 Wrote: And one more insight for the day. I assume too much about the healing process instead of taking it for what it is. Sometimes there is pain, sometimes there isn't, sometimes it's fast, sometimes it's slow, sometimes it's noticeable, sometimes it's not, etc. By holding onto any one of those I'm trying to control the process and not letting E2 do what it needs to do. As of right now I'm listening to E2 and having this sensation of intense despair and sadness, I just have to notice it and let it through. If I try too hard to feel a different way I ruin the process. Ironically even though kids seem to be more emotional and out of control than adults, I'd argue they are more pure in a way, not feeling the need to control their emotions as much or hide them. I feel like I need to get back to that state but at the same time be non-reactive to the emotions themselves and not let them lead me astray.
This is good stuff!
