08-16-2016, 07:33 AM
(08-15-2016, 10:23 AM)maxx55 Wrote: I'm glad I read your journal entry, I've been having doubts if E2 is still helping but seeing that others are having very similar experiences reassures me it's still helping.
Recently, I have been more proactive with my acting career. I've been interested in writing some scripts for an anime style show and some films, but I never did that much about it. Within the past couple of weeks, my creative thoughts have been flowing even more than they usually do and I've started working on the outline for 3 different scripts. I'm able to see things a bit better in my mind now about the characters.
Regardless of whatever else you're doing for your day job, it really looks like you should keep working on your music. Especially if you enjoy it man.
It's always good to hear from others that similar things are going on with E2. It's a bit of a stumble in the dark at times. It makes sense though we're pretty much rediscover ourselves after all the crap that's been pushed into our heads through the years.
But it definitely sounds like things are coming together a bit more for you. It's my belief that creative ideas are pretty infinite, but when you are too critical of yourself it's like shutting off the valve. E2 has definitely allowed me to tap into more ideas because I'm less worried about them being bad or stupid. I think that's really important for anyone because all ideas come from the same place and you can't filter out the bad ones without filtering out the good ones as well.
(08-15-2016, 12:48 PM)Rennus Wrote: I've found that anything emotionally healing related definitely ramps up your creativity and makes self-expression in general much, much easier and clearer. Studying became easier too, for me.
(I'm not using E2 yet, though!)
Absolutely. That's been my experience too. Especially if someone is a perfectionist like me. Nothing kills creativity faster than trying to come up with the perfect idea. Many hours were spent at my computer not finishing music because I had an obsession with coming up with the perfect idea that didn't exist.
You're gonna really like E2 when you run it. It's by far the most powerful healing I've ever come across.
Lately I've been having the urge to up my exposure time to E2 as I feel like I haven't been getting enough. I've also been very neglectful of my own emotional state. That feeling of me almost breaking down was an indication that I wasn't acknowledging my emotions that needed healing. Also I don't know if this happens to anyone else but I went skateboarding the other day and after I was done it felt like my body released some serious pent up emotions. I think there's a lot of stored emotions still in my body and it's weird but exercise seems to knock them loose.
And one more insight for the day. I assume too much about the healing process instead of taking it for what it is. Sometimes there is pain, sometimes there isn't, sometimes it's fast, sometimes it's slow, sometimes it's noticeable, sometimes it's not, etc. By holding onto any one of those I'm trying to control the process and not letting E2 do what it needs to do. As of right now I'm listening to E2 and having this sensation of intense despair and sadness, I just have to notice it and let it through. If I try too hard to feel a different way I ruin the process. Ironically even though kids seem to be more emotional and out of control than adults, I'd argue they are more pure in a way, not feeling the need to control their emotions as much or hide them. I feel like I need to get back to that state but at the same time be non-reactive to the emotions themselves and not let them lead me astray.
