08-12-2016, 07:20 AM
Now I realize why I've been stalling my progress with E2. I've been fighting that sort of blank feeling this sub gives you so you don't re experience emotional trauma. I saw it as a bad thing, like I'm distancing myself from my emotions too much. So I'd have a bad habit of digging things up again and interfering with the program.
I think a lot of this is due to being heavily involved with meditation/mindfulness in the past and using it to cope with my anxiety and depression. I'm very used to consciously intervening to release or manage emotions. I realize now I have to give all that responsibility over to my subconscious and just go about my day. Take a completely hands off approach to all of this.
Not only was I stalling my progress, but I was creating more stress for myself by bringing the emotional pain into conscious awareness and dwelling in it. I just realized about 75% of my day was heavily involved with those negative thoughts and feelings instead of focusing on just enjoying my day or working on more productive things.
I've noticed when I don't run E2 enough I'm weighed down a lot more by my emotions. I wrongly assumed this was a good thing in the past as I felt the need to consciously know what was being healed. But now I see I wrongly assumed that emotional pain= more growth. Just goes to show there's a lot of misguided beliefs around healing and growth that can cause you more pain for no real reason.
I think a lot of this is due to being heavily involved with meditation/mindfulness in the past and using it to cope with my anxiety and depression. I'm very used to consciously intervening to release or manage emotions. I realize now I have to give all that responsibility over to my subconscious and just go about my day. Take a completely hands off approach to all of this.
Not only was I stalling my progress, but I was creating more stress for myself by bringing the emotional pain into conscious awareness and dwelling in it. I just realized about 75% of my day was heavily involved with those negative thoughts and feelings instead of focusing on just enjoying my day or working on more productive things.
I've noticed when I don't run E2 enough I'm weighed down a lot more by my emotions. I wrongly assumed this was a good thing in the past as I felt the need to consciously know what was being healed. But now I see I wrongly assumed that emotional pain= more growth. Just goes to show there's a lot of misguided beliefs around healing and growth that can cause you more pain for no real reason.
