08-09-2016, 11:43 PM
(08-09-2016, 10:24 AM)Raz Wrote:(08-07-2016, 09:35 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: It's just this run has been throwing me for a huge loop, and i'm just tired of feeling at an all time low; imagine your normal baseline mood level, but drop it down a couple notches. that has become my baseline, and i recognize that i've stooped into a bout of depression that has lasted since i began this program. and it's because of the resistance to this program that i feel this way.
I can relate so very much, eternity. You describe how it used to be for me during the first run. For me it got better once I cleared the initial resistance in Stage 4 (at the beginning of S4 I had a fit of raging hatred and deleted every single post I had written here prior, and thus deleted my own account for a while; lol).
right on, i am starting to let it sink in that this first run through of BASE2.1 doesn't HAVE to be pleasant. That itself is giving me a lot of relief, by releasing some expectations on myself and the program. The other side of this coin is that I'm destined to do a second run of this.
Quote:In retrospect all this depression and resistance during that run crafted a deep seated determination within me to master BASE, however long it may take.
haha it is so fitting to see your signature after this statement in your post...
Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
Definitely puts things into perspective for me.
