08-05-2016, 10:40 AM
(07-23-2016, 11:51 PM)Voytek Wrote: Jason, could you write anything about inner changes? How SM3 has changed you as a person? I`m very curious of shifts in your thinking and behaviour.
I won't be able to give you complete honest and true answer as I can't distinguish my inner changed anymore that SM3 has brought.
Stage 1, changed my perceptions a lot and made me horny in the first run but nothing so special in the second run stage 1. I had my confidence and game to somewhat new level.
The first run Stage 1 had many lucid dreams but in the second run, I almost had none or I don't remember any of em mostly.
Stage 2
I can't remember now.
Stage 3
My desire to learn and improve myself was through roof and I started the business in my second run and I had bought so many business programs in my first run of Stage 3. I had crazy experiences in my first run and internal changes of game through roof was noticed in both times.
Stage 4
I had my game become solid in many terms and natural as it seems from description. Though I have been getting furious with people on so many level.
Overall stages changes:
My playfulness, bantering, fun challenging attitude is through roof.
I can make fun of almost anyone and in such a way, that he or she likes it though many times I don't stop there and push em away.
I too much of a challenge for everyone to talk to handle.
I complain a lot.
My walk, my posture, my openness, my thoughts are utterly transformed and my arrogance, my confidence, my self-esteem, my self-worth are without a shadow of doubt, limitless.
I sometimes fear something, but I am mostly fearless in almost any situation and more importantly, even if I am not, I don't care as I can and do overcome my fear sooner or later in matter of minutes to tops hour.
My persuasiveness has been also extreme and that may not be due to sub.
My eye contact is rock solid and eye seduction is a natural and part of me and it's extremely easy.
I easily and effortlessly pass the shit test of almost anyone and I see em coming and see as I not only pass em, but throw away like it was impactless and it is impactless on me. And hey come on, who the fvck thinks to try to shit test me..
My genuineness has been degraded a little bit as compared to AM6 as I did not thought of lying in AM6 but in SM3 I did lied and I realized and caught it, though it did happen and in AM6, due to authenticity training, it wasn't there.
I love myself a lot.
I'm horny as fvck, always, all the time. I just require a touch of a girl and I am hard. I just require to think of a girl and I am hard. I just require to see any hotties picture on instagram and I am hard. I just require to sleep for 5 minutes and I am hard.
I can talk and crack through mostly any person's shell and help em.
My wisdom and understanding of life and maturity in general is so high than ever and than anyone I know of my age has any.
I am self aware and not self-conscious.
I forget things a lot. I feel so distant to my family, my friends, and I am emotionally detached with people on some level that I can't explain.
My five friends have died some time ago and I had one or two dreams of them and we were doing some activities and when I woke up, I realized that I have not moved on from them but consciously I don't even feel any part of grief nor did I felt when they died, and it was very strange considering I was too close to them and recently that came up in my dream that means either some cleaning up is going on or I require to let go of em.
I scare lot of the individuals on very unknown levels.
I don't open up to people and do not become vulnerable but at some level I don't feel so because if a person is someone I trust, I can easily (oh, that was a subconscious lie) open up to em. Now, I realize, how important it is to keep the journal, that while writing it, we get to know a lot of stuffs and get em cleared up.
I have had so many changed occurred that I possibly list here but when I read somewhere about someone's change and they described it vividly, and I would become like, I have been through this already.
Though second run of SM3 has made the changes go very deeper and changed my core a lot and it doesn't feel change anymore. It's there and it's who I am.
I am right now on Stage 5 5th day.
