08-03-2016, 09:56 PM
(08-03-2016, 08:27 AM)apollolux Wrote: Pay attention to your choice of words - "coming back" vs "going back" here. You still consider where you came from (I think you said Texas, IIRC) as your home base, your "here." You seem to not feel anchored in India, do you think it might be simple homesickness or something stronger?
When i said "here" i referred to my curent location, India. Of course Houston is my home base, that's where everything i know and love is. And you're right, i'm not anchored in india. definitely not. i still feel like an outsider at times, and its doubly more so that i don't know the local language. it's got a lot to do with homesickness, being away from my friends and family. there's also some resentments about this place that are starting to destroy me. the culture is just not the same. i find myself in a state of rage from the noise pollution here.
(08-03-2016, 09:42 AM)Raz Wrote: Sounds familiar. BASE is infusing you with all the good stuff now. Almost. It took me some time to realize, but after I went through a similar turbulence I was becoming very steady in doing my thing. After the limbo the turbulence induced subsided, that is.
It will get better soon.
There is hope! Much needed hope, and I much appreciate you encouraging me. BASE is a completely different beast. I felt suicidal during stage 1, and here during stage 3 i'm emotionally a wreck which is far from what a successful entrepreneur should be like.
(08-03-2016, 12:27 PM)Ivaylo Wrote: I think I can relate to your experience as well. During BASE I spent a lot of time alternating between doing either:
1) projects that I never liked but I considered to be a step in the "right" direction
2) projects that I enjoyed doing with all my heart and considered to be worthwhile... and they all failed for reasons that I still consider to be unfair.
I can largely attribute to this attitude why I don't yet have the income of a truly successful entrepreneur. I kept trying to find "my path" where as now, after a week of E2, I don't believe such a thing exists. Ironically, this actually frees me to pursue what I want with more gusto. I think it was burdening to me to even consider/label something I want to do "a path". Seeing that we have similar types as I'm an ENTP, I'm wondering if that may be relevant to you as well...
You know, I do believe I have a path, but it might be in ways I don't expect. I felt completely fulfilled when I was working at a sober living center and an AA club. The money was very poor, but my heart was fulfilled to epic proportions, knowing I was directly responsible for helping save people's lives. Which leads me to believe that the acquisition of money is not the goal I should be striving for. Even though my income was low, i did not feel scarcity. I felt abundant. of course, that was during my OF5G & E2 run and scarcity is largely fear based. But in a roundabout way, you refer to being realistic in expectations, and that's a lot of what i should consider. There are numerous books out there that talk about following your heart ("Reality Transurfing" being one of them, which i'm currently reading, and is probably a major culprit behind this emotional upheaval
), and they all generally point to alternate world views, which sound really amazing in theory, but are really hard to actually apply. And so that brings me to remember what my dad always told me growing up. "An executive does what needs to be done, not what he wants to do". Maybe I just gotta sit down, shut up, and do what's in front of me and stop being a little bitch about it
