(08-03-2016, 02:25 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: whoa, i'm having some deep emotionally charged doubts about all of this.
1. film distribution isn't for me. I'm using it as an avenue to get into acting, but it's mind numbing, and doesn't enage my passions whatsoever.
2. i can't live in india for a long time, it's driving me nuts here. i can't stand the way some shit is. like the sound of honking horns 24/7, making it damn near impossible to find peace and quiet.
3. this isn't the path i carved out for myself, it's a path given to me by someone else, and it seems like my best interests isn't in their mind/heart.
if i jump ship and give up, does that make me a quitter? but what if i'm quitting for my sanity's sake? then it's for the greater good. lol my mind's a mess, and my heart is confused lol.
I think I can relate to your experience as well. During BASE I spent a lot of time alternating between doing either:
1) projects that I never liked but I considered to be a step in the "right" direction
2) projects that I enjoyed doing with all my heart and considered to be worthwhile... and they all failed for reasons that I still consider to be unfair.
I can largely attribute to this attitude why I don't yet have the income of a truly successful entrepreneur. I kept trying to find "my path" where as now, after a week of E2, I don't believe such a thing exists. Ironically, this actually frees me to pursue what I want with more gusto. I think it was burdening to me to even consider/label something I want to do "a path". Seeing that we have similar types as I'm an ENTP, I'm wondering if that may be relevant to you as well...
