08-03-2016, 09:42 AM
(08-03-2016, 02:25 AM)eternitys_child Wrote: whoa, i'm having some deep emotionally charged doubts about all of this.
1. film distribution isn't for me. I'm using it as an avenue to get into acting, but it's mind numbing, and doesn't enage my passions whatsoever.
2. i can't live in india for a long time, it's driving me nuts here. i can't stand the way some shit is. like the sound of honking horns 24/7, making it damn near impossible to find peace and quiet.
3. this isn't the path i carved out for myself, it's a path given to me by someone else, and it seems like my best interests isn't in their mind/heart.
i have to go back to houston on october 2nd, because my visa doesn't allow me to be in india beyond that.... and i'm seriously considering not coming back. but the consideration is emotionally based, not logically based, for what it's worth.
if i jump ship and give up, does that make me a quitter? but what if i'm quitting for my sanity's sake? then it's for the greater good. lol my mind's a mess, and my heart is confused lol.
Sounds familiar. BASE is infusing you with all the good stuff now. Almost. It took me some time to realize, but after I went through a similar turbulence I was becoming very steady in doing my thing. After the limbo the turbulence induced subsided, that is.
It will get better soon.
_ - Third Stone From The Sun - _
