08-02-2016, 08:12 AM
Ran 2 loops yesterday, ultrasonic -35 dB. Stayed home all day. My wife was moody and tired from all the hours she's been working, but by the end of the day she was submissive and deferential. I had been irritable, tired, and moody myself yesterday. Before she went to bed (she had to get up early for another 24-hour shift this morning) she got into character like a little girl, frowned, stuck her lip out..."Why you so to me mean today?" Not really baby-talk, but definitely sulking/submissive behavior. She was all smiles by the time I reassured her before she went upstairs.
Also trained my dad last night. He's now clearly deferential to me. Pretty weird. It's like wearing an alpha blend pheromone, but I wasn't.
Didn't listen while sleeping last night. I had multiple dreams dealing with G/S/F and forgiveness. In one dream, I was training at a studio owned by a guy I paid a percentage of my session fees to work there. In the dream, I brought my own equipment to add value to what he already had. The music was loud, and I was enjoying myself with at least 2 clients. Another lady, very fat, was working out by herself but watching what we were doing. We weren't paying attention to her. The next thing I know, one of my clients exclaims that the other lady isn't breathing. I check her, she's long-dead. I wasn't paying any attention to her, so I couldn't save her. I called for my wife to save her, but she couldn't either. I cried, wracked with guilt and helplessness. Wasn't pretty, lol.
In the next dream I was at a large outdoor, futuristic club. I was swarmed with women, and felt confident. I actually felt like I would imagine a celebrity who's on top of the world might feel like. The significant part of the dream occurred while I was at the bar getting a drink. I was approached by a person who I used to be friends with. I've long-since written him off. I stopped talking to him because of his dark nature, how he treated women, how much of a dick he was to me, and because I didn't have anything in common with him anymore. In the dream, I didn't have any trepidation talking to him again, and he was impressed with my status. We just talked like everything was fine. It must be forgiveness-related.
I didn't experience anything overtly sexual in the dreams, but I do recall tossing and turning with noc-wood (that's how I'm going to refer to nocturnal erections from now on, lol).
I feel good today, optimistic and level-headed. I'm currently on loop 2 of 3 this morning. Unfortunately, it'll be time for my son's nap when I'm done, so I'll be stuck in the house until early evening. Perhaps we'll go grab dinner somewhere and see what happens.
Also trained my dad last night. He's now clearly deferential to me. Pretty weird. It's like wearing an alpha blend pheromone, but I wasn't.
Didn't listen while sleeping last night. I had multiple dreams dealing with G/S/F and forgiveness. In one dream, I was training at a studio owned by a guy I paid a percentage of my session fees to work there. In the dream, I brought my own equipment to add value to what he already had. The music was loud, and I was enjoying myself with at least 2 clients. Another lady, very fat, was working out by herself but watching what we were doing. We weren't paying attention to her. The next thing I know, one of my clients exclaims that the other lady isn't breathing. I check her, she's long-dead. I wasn't paying any attention to her, so I couldn't save her. I called for my wife to save her, but she couldn't either. I cried, wracked with guilt and helplessness. Wasn't pretty, lol.
In the next dream I was at a large outdoor, futuristic club. I was swarmed with women, and felt confident. I actually felt like I would imagine a celebrity who's on top of the world might feel like. The significant part of the dream occurred while I was at the bar getting a drink. I was approached by a person who I used to be friends with. I've long-since written him off. I stopped talking to him because of his dark nature, how he treated women, how much of a dick he was to me, and because I didn't have anything in common with him anymore. In the dream, I didn't have any trepidation talking to him again, and he was impressed with my status. We just talked like everything was fine. It must be forgiveness-related.
I didn't experience anything overtly sexual in the dreams, but I do recall tossing and turning with noc-wood (that's how I'm going to refer to nocturnal erections from now on, lol).
I feel good today, optimistic and level-headed. I'm currently on loop 2 of 3 this morning. Unfortunately, it'll be time for my son's nap when I'm done, so I'll be stuck in the house until early evening. Perhaps we'll go grab dinner somewhere and see what happens.
