07-27-2016, 12:24 AM
day 7 of stage 3, and the resistance comes just in time.
internal dialogue:
1. nothing is going on with BASE, switch to a different sub
2. who are you kidding? You? successful? HAHAHAHAHAHA
3. we shall stonewall stage 3
(in gollum's voice)
4. you're a lazy bum, how can you expect to be successful?
So the negative self talk is relentless and ruthless, and i identify it as the base of the negativity I feel.
luckily i talked with leonidas and he offered a different perspective, which made me realize the stuff going on in my mind is classic signs of resisting programming.
so it's not all that bad!
internal dialogue:
1. nothing is going on with BASE, switch to a different sub
2. who are you kidding? You? successful? HAHAHAHAHAHA
3. we shall stonewall stage 3
(in gollum's voice)4. you're a lazy bum, how can you expect to be successful?
So the negative self talk is relentless and ruthless, and i identify it as the base of the negativity I feel.
luckily i talked with leonidas and he offered a different perspective, which made me realize the stuff going on in my mind is classic signs of resisting programming.
so it's not all that bad!
