07-22-2016, 08:38 AM
So instead of my usual verbose posts, I'll condense this one down. There's a lot about healing I had misconceptions about that slowed my progress. Being too attached to the story behind what needs to be released is one of them. When you live with things like anxiety or depression for a while, there are a lot of beliefs you start building surrounding life and "reality". On top of that sometimes support groups reinforce these beliefs. If you hold onto these stories as the truth you never grow. You really have to question everything you think you know and challenge it. That being said, a few changes I've made.
1. I've started doing a visualization meditation every morning on what I want in my life. It's mostly been focused on actually building up my skill of visualization which is lacking. But I make sure whatever it is I'm focusing on I feel authentically and truly desire and that it's not just a passing desire.
2. I think I've been ignoring the self-regulation instructions for E2 and took on way too much at once thinking you have to suffer a lot to get better. I'm a bit headstrong and stubborn at times. I'll subject myself to a lot of pain if I believe it'll get me somewhere faster. Now I'm taking things in small chunks. E2 brings it up, I release it, then I move onto the next thing. Much more productive than trying to plow through everything at once.
3. When I find myself in anxious situations I practice deep breathing and remind myself this anxiety is me. I'm creating it and I have control over it. No matter how much I believe I don't in that moment of panic, I do.
4. Focusing on my strengths instead of weaknesses. I've focused on my negatives for so long I made the mistake that I didn't have any strengths. Focusing on my strengths helps me feel better about myself and recognize my capabilities instead of constantly underestimating myself.
That's all for now. It's still going to be a journey, but I'm ok with that now. I know I have all the insight and wisdom I ever need to live a happy life, it's just a matter of practicing it and staying with it.
1. I've started doing a visualization meditation every morning on what I want in my life. It's mostly been focused on actually building up my skill of visualization which is lacking. But I make sure whatever it is I'm focusing on I feel authentically and truly desire and that it's not just a passing desire.
2. I think I've been ignoring the self-regulation instructions for E2 and took on way too much at once thinking you have to suffer a lot to get better. I'm a bit headstrong and stubborn at times. I'll subject myself to a lot of pain if I believe it'll get me somewhere faster. Now I'm taking things in small chunks. E2 brings it up, I release it, then I move onto the next thing. Much more productive than trying to plow through everything at once.
3. When I find myself in anxious situations I practice deep breathing and remind myself this anxiety is me. I'm creating it and I have control over it. No matter how much I believe I don't in that moment of panic, I do.
4. Focusing on my strengths instead of weaknesses. I've focused on my negatives for so long I made the mistake that I didn't have any strengths. Focusing on my strengths helps me feel better about myself and recognize my capabilities instead of constantly underestimating myself.
That's all for now. It's still going to be a journey, but I'm ok with that now. I know I have all the insight and wisdom I ever need to live a happy life, it's just a matter of practicing it and staying with it.
