07-15-2016, 08:43 AM
i'm starting to come to the understanding that deep down on the inside, i am a lackadaisical character. not necessarily "lazy", but aloof and carefree. but that sometimes appears to me to be laziness. I certainly know I'm not lazy, though, as the amount of time I spend focusing on bettering myself (which I consider productivity) FAR outweighs the time I spend doing absolutely nothing. shit, even this game pokemon go has me walking upwards to 3km daily, so even while i'm playing a game i'm getting exercise in lol.
anyhow, Shannon's words "Simply Be" have been ringing in my head all day long today. Every time I had a moment of emotion, positive or negative, I told myself "simply be." of course, it's much easier said than done, but it's progress.
Transurfing has been steadily destroying lifelong concepts I've held as truth all my life.
What's weird is.. When I was in Houston, I kept wondering how it's gonna be like when I finally get to india and start this work. Now, I keep wondering what it's going to be like when I get back to Houston and enjoy the 3 months off to run DMSI. It's always been that way for me, "the grass is always greener" type thing. It's like my mind is somewhere else, never in the here and now...
there is progress to be made here.
anyhow, Shannon's words "Simply Be" have been ringing in my head all day long today. Every time I had a moment of emotion, positive or negative, I told myself "simply be." of course, it's much easier said than done, but it's progress.
Transurfing has been steadily destroying lifelong concepts I've held as truth all my life.
What's weird is.. When I was in Houston, I kept wondering how it's gonna be like when I finally get to india and start this work. Now, I keep wondering what it's going to be like when I get back to Houston and enjoy the 3 months off to run DMSI. It's always been that way for me, "the grass is always greener" type thing. It's like my mind is somewhere else, never in the here and now...
there is progress to be made here.
