Shannon's DMSI V2.2 Journal

[Shannon]

Alright. So today and yesterday were "negation testing" for me on this. That means that after my 3 loops, I haven't used it again.

The first day I used it, my girlfriend experienced the effects of it while the aura was fading from consciously detectable projection for me. She told me that she felt it instantly when I walked through the door, though, and that were we not in public she would have jumped me. She also became extremely sensitive to the touch as a result of it.

Yesterday, I went back over to her house around midnight for dinner, and she said she could still faintly feel the aura.

In case you're wondering, I don't need this program to get all the sex I want from my girlfriend. She's more than happy to unload me and scent mark me to ward off other females. She's figured out that an unloaded penis isn't (as) dangerous, and a penis that smells of pussy is usually avoided by other females above their teens. Between that and the fact that she perceives sex as being our way of bonding emotionally and showing one another genuine love, I never "go hungry" unless I'm too busy working on something important to worry about sex.

Today, I was awakened by my dogs asking to go out. I tried to go back to bed, but the program told me that I needed to go to a specific diner today instead and spend time with one particular server, whom I am interested in. And she was there, and we had a blast.

And yes, this server knows I have a girlfriend, and yes, I have the freedom to date and have sex with whomever I want.

Is your girlfriend a manifestation of AYPSL or AYPG?

My girlfriend was a gift of sorts. A little birdy told me that if I was willing to put in the work to help someone get out of a mess of emotional, mental and physical abuse, she would make a fine choice in women for me. When I agreed, he directed me to her.

When I met her, she was definitely a mess, and in the mess he told me she was in. But I rolled up my sleeves and began helping her, and her growth in the last few years has been nothing short of phenomenal. And she has indeed proven to be a fine choice of women. She's not perfect, but she's damned sure the most trustworthy woman I have ever met, and she understands love and sex the same way I do. I think this must be the first woman I ever met who I feel safe entrusting my heart to. The rest have been betrayals.

It's been quite the challenge to get her to where she is, and she isn't done growing. But with my help and her determination and effort, her whole life has turned around and she is rapidly approaching where she would have been in life without having had to go through all the abuse and self destructive behaviors that resulted.

Yesterday she did a happy dance because she is so happy to be starting her own business baking and selling cookies, cupcakes and pies. I have never seen her do that before. We must be doing something right.