07-11-2016, 01:33 AM
Month 3 - 27 days of listening
Days missed = 7
Well the contract didn't work out so I went back to my parents house to see family for a few days. It went well but I am still not 100% where I want to be. It's like a cant accept them as they are and want to help change them, their attitudes are negative/pessimistic in nature (they are old so understandable) so I disagree with a lot of what they say. Rather than just get on with it I instinctively want to turn them more positive, so just end up getting frustrated. It was better than normal though so its definitely improved.
I was using a sleephones and ocean track at my parents and I had an interesting feeling while drifting off to sleep. I was getting the fear while I had my eyes closed, that feeling of claustrophobia as I was lucid dreaming - the dream was frustrating me and something just didn't compute and the feeling in my brain was a physical one of frustration and limitation, then it was as if I was handed a key to a padlock - I received a key in my lucid dream and the frustration and physical feeling went away. It was like I had unlocked something in my mind that had been restricting me for a long time, it was very satisfying!
Another thing to note is when I go to bed with the ultrasonic playing on my speakers, for the first 10 minutes while I go to sleep my brain starts to 'pump' like your heart does after sprinting. I can feel a large channel/vein in my brain that pumps ferociously, it then goes back to normal after a while. I wonder if this is the body pumping large amounts of blood to the brain to help it compute the subliminal that its processing? Does anyone else get this feeling?
Like a few others E2 users have mentioned, motivation to post is very low. In fact motivation is low all round. I'm at the most lazy i've been for a long time in my diet and exercise, and I don't have a job now. Typically in these situations when I have my back against a wall I really go for it and sort things out: update CV, start looking for jobs, make improvements to diet, cut out booze, get running and doing yoga, clean and tidy the house, throw stuff out, sell stuff on ebay. But its just not happening, I've no motivation or drive - Its like everything is cool so don't worry about it, just chill and carry on in your nice cosy cloud bubble!!
Im not usually 100% motivated, but typically I would cycle though lazy periods and then very active periods which where reached at breaking points. That balance has now shifted to the more chilled/lazy side, as I'm not heating those breaking points anymore.
Even though i wanted to do at least 6 months of E2 I think i might switch to LTU after 3 months instead. I'm coming upto the end of the 3 months for E2 so it would be timed well. I also did 4 months of E1 before so I would be at 7 months overall. I know I haven't reached ground zero for E2, I think that would take at least a year. I would also like to do LTU for a year, so once starting theres no going back to E2 after a couple months.
Im gonna have to give this one some time to think about.
Days missed = 7
Well the contract didn't work out so I went back to my parents house to see family for a few days. It went well but I am still not 100% where I want to be. It's like a cant accept them as they are and want to help change them, their attitudes are negative/pessimistic in nature (they are old so understandable) so I disagree with a lot of what they say. Rather than just get on with it I instinctively want to turn them more positive, so just end up getting frustrated. It was better than normal though so its definitely improved.
I was using a sleephones and ocean track at my parents and I had an interesting feeling while drifting off to sleep. I was getting the fear while I had my eyes closed, that feeling of claustrophobia as I was lucid dreaming - the dream was frustrating me and something just didn't compute and the feeling in my brain was a physical one of frustration and limitation, then it was as if I was handed a key to a padlock - I received a key in my lucid dream and the frustration and physical feeling went away. It was like I had unlocked something in my mind that had been restricting me for a long time, it was very satisfying!
Another thing to note is when I go to bed with the ultrasonic playing on my speakers, for the first 10 minutes while I go to sleep my brain starts to 'pump' like your heart does after sprinting. I can feel a large channel/vein in my brain that pumps ferociously, it then goes back to normal after a while. I wonder if this is the body pumping large amounts of blood to the brain to help it compute the subliminal that its processing? Does anyone else get this feeling?
Like a few others E2 users have mentioned, motivation to post is very low. In fact motivation is low all round. I'm at the most lazy i've been for a long time in my diet and exercise, and I don't have a job now. Typically in these situations when I have my back against a wall I really go for it and sort things out: update CV, start looking for jobs, make improvements to diet, cut out booze, get running and doing yoga, clean and tidy the house, throw stuff out, sell stuff on ebay. But its just not happening, I've no motivation or drive - Its like everything is cool so don't worry about it, just chill and carry on in your nice cosy cloud bubble!!
Im not usually 100% motivated, but typically I would cycle though lazy periods and then very active periods which where reached at breaking points. That balance has now shifted to the more chilled/lazy side, as I'm not heating those breaking points anymore.
Even though i wanted to do at least 6 months of E2 I think i might switch to LTU after 3 months instead. I'm coming upto the end of the 3 months for E2 so it would be timed well. I also did 4 months of E1 before so I would be at 7 months overall. I know I haven't reached ground zero for E2, I think that would take at least a year. I would also like to do LTU for a year, so once starting theres no going back to E2 after a couple months.
Im gonna have to give this one some time to think about.
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My EHPRA Journal - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5779.html
My Intro and Ramblings - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5785.html
