Describe the sound of one hand clapping, the taste of sunshine, or the nature of a vacuum.
This is how it feels trying to figure out E2 and what it's doing.
EPRHA 2.0, Day 6
I have read other accounts of E2, and wondered why people "lost the urge" to journal their experiences. Yet, as I sit here trying to document my own... it's as if the thoughts are right there in front of me, yet when I reach for them, they move further away. But I shall make the attempt.
My listening protocol has not changed. 6-8 hours during the day, listening to the trickling stream over bluetooth earbuds. Followed by 6-8 hours at night listening to the ultrasonic track on a speaker in the bedroom.
The Physical:
Having run ASC 5G before this, I thought I had gotten past the tendency toward fatigue. Not so, during these first few days on E2, I have noticed that I am tired, and my brain is a little foggy (though that may be due to lack of sleep... see below for details).
My diet does not seem to be affected. It remains a little higher carb (perhaps 5% higher) than it was before beginning ASC.
No odd "hot flashes". HOWEVER, I have been running a little hot consistently. I've been experiencing some night sweats, and for the last several weeks, I've had to sleep on top of the covers. Today, I'm going to pick up some Cordyceps to help with that.
Observations:
About 5 months ago, I had an experience with a family member that made me angry (not a fight, but my reaction to their action). So angry, in fact, that I was unable to sleep that night, and had an attack of tinnitus (first ever) that lasted for two months. Worse still, I was in "primal scream" mode for about a week afterward.
This is the event that led to my do or die red pill moment.
FAST FORWARD...
Wednesday and Thursday the 29th & 30th of June, I had occasion to spend some time alone with this family member. My anger has long passed (and I'm not one to hold a grudge). However, there was a related incident that annoyed me.
Friday 01 Jul 2016, I began E2. I do not know if it was related or not, but it struck me as unusual that From the 1st of July, until the 4th of July, I was filled with anger at this same person. This anger manifested shortly after sundown each day.
Not just "i'm mad at you" anger... but seething, bitter rage. This rage was directed at my family member's behavior from last week, as well as from several months ago.
It was bad enough that I could not sleep until after 03:00 for several days. Completely ruined my schedule. I am a morning person, and for those days, I didn't wake up until 08:00.
Last night (the 5th of July) it subsided a bit and I was able to get more rest.
Thoughts on E2:
It's still to early to say anything concrete. And I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to pin down the effects in my own life.
But I'm going to ride it out, and see what happens.
This is how it feels trying to figure out E2 and what it's doing.
EPRHA 2.0, Day 6
I have read other accounts of E2, and wondered why people "lost the urge" to journal their experiences. Yet, as I sit here trying to document my own... it's as if the thoughts are right there in front of me, yet when I reach for them, they move further away. But I shall make the attempt.
My listening protocol has not changed. 6-8 hours during the day, listening to the trickling stream over bluetooth earbuds. Followed by 6-8 hours at night listening to the ultrasonic track on a speaker in the bedroom.
The Physical:
Having run ASC 5G before this, I thought I had gotten past the tendency toward fatigue. Not so, during these first few days on E2, I have noticed that I am tired, and my brain is a little foggy (though that may be due to lack of sleep... see below for details).
My diet does not seem to be affected. It remains a little higher carb (perhaps 5% higher) than it was before beginning ASC.
No odd "hot flashes". HOWEVER, I have been running a little hot consistently. I've been experiencing some night sweats, and for the last several weeks, I've had to sleep on top of the covers. Today, I'm going to pick up some Cordyceps to help with that.
Observations:
About 5 months ago, I had an experience with a family member that made me angry (not a fight, but my reaction to their action). So angry, in fact, that I was unable to sleep that night, and had an attack of tinnitus (first ever) that lasted for two months. Worse still, I was in "primal scream" mode for about a week afterward.
This is the event that led to my do or die red pill moment.
FAST FORWARD...
Wednesday and Thursday the 29th & 30th of June, I had occasion to spend some time alone with this family member. My anger has long passed (and I'm not one to hold a grudge). However, there was a related incident that annoyed me.
Friday 01 Jul 2016, I began E2. I do not know if it was related or not, but it struck me as unusual that From the 1st of July, until the 4th of July, I was filled with anger at this same person. This anger manifested shortly after sundown each day.
Not just "i'm mad at you" anger... but seething, bitter rage. This rage was directed at my family member's behavior from last week, as well as from several months ago.
It was bad enough that I could not sleep until after 03:00 for several days. Completely ruined my schedule. I am a morning person, and for those days, I didn't wake up until 08:00.
Last night (the 5th of July) it subsided a bit and I was able to get more rest.
Thoughts on E2:
It's still to early to say anything concrete. And I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to pin down the effects in my own life.
But I'm going to ride it out, and see what happens.
Male, 48, ENTP, married, III%
Current: EPRHA 2.0
Completed: ASC (30 Jun 16)
Current: EPRHA 2.0
Completed: ASC (30 Jun 16)
