Thanks for the advice Spiral. Jeff I will have to remember that next time I catch her checking me out. I have to say that I am starting to see very small progress with two main issues that I have been having for a LONG time. First issue is staying level headed in the heat of the moment in difficult situations. I would get nervous, shaky and or would tremble. The second one is learning to keep my mouth shut in the heat of the moment when I know that it won't do any good or benefit me in the long run.
Well, today I got pulled in the office for something, when my boss told me what it was about, I wanted to say something so bad. However, I just let the boss say what he wanted to say and didn't say anything. Mostly, because I knew he would come up with some excuse or try to put the blame on me. Which he has done that a few times, so I am learning from that. When he asked me a few questions, I could feel myself getting a bit nervous, but at the same time I could hold my own. I could feel a very tiny bit of shakiness, but I was able to keep it under control. I could hold decent eye contact, but it really took everything in me to keep quiet about what I wanted to say.
About the girl at work, I was doing some work when she came into my view. Right as she saw me, her face lit up like a Christmas tree. She had a big smile on her face. Our eyes connected but here is the interesting part that I just remembered. our eyes locked, it was for more than five seconds, and I wanted to look away. However, something in my mind told me to keep looking until she broke the eye contact, which she did.
I have a question for Shannon, without revealing too much in the AM program, when does having a Zen attitude take place within the program? The reason I asked is because I am currently two weeks into stage 3, and I can feel the small changes that I just described. They are small changes but the little things are starting to come together.
Well, today I got pulled in the office for something, when my boss told me what it was about, I wanted to say something so bad. However, I just let the boss say what he wanted to say and didn't say anything. Mostly, because I knew he would come up with some excuse or try to put the blame on me. Which he has done that a few times, so I am learning from that. When he asked me a few questions, I could feel myself getting a bit nervous, but at the same time I could hold my own. I could feel a very tiny bit of shakiness, but I was able to keep it under control. I could hold decent eye contact, but it really took everything in me to keep quiet about what I wanted to say.
About the girl at work, I was doing some work when she came into my view. Right as she saw me, her face lit up like a Christmas tree. She had a big smile on her face. Our eyes connected but here is the interesting part that I just remembered. our eyes locked, it was for more than five seconds, and I wanted to look away. However, something in my mind told me to keep looking until she broke the eye contact, which she did.
I have a question for Shannon, without revealing too much in the AM program, when does having a Zen attitude take place within the program? The reason I asked is because I am currently two weeks into stage 3, and I can feel the small changes that I just described. They are small changes but the little things are starting to come together.