07-01-2016, 08:56 PM
I continue to get IOIs and the interest seems stronger. The other day I was leaving the mall and as I step out the door, there's this cute brunette standing out there in her summer dress. I look at her (from behind my sunglasses) and when she sees me she smiles and there's was something about her body language that changed that said, "Please come and talk to me." I didn't and you know why. As well, I'm still weirded out by women who react that warmly to me.
I get to my car and I'm sitting there with the window down fucking around on my phone, when this SUV turns in one spot over. I scan the inside starting with the driver who's a woman past her prime, and then I see some younger girls in the back. On my side out comes this cute blonde who must be late teens/early 20s. So she gets out and I'm looking at her, and she's standing there looking at me (we're both wearing sunglasses) and this goes on for 5 or 6 seconds which is a long time for a stare between strangers. As I said the window was down yet we exchanged no words. Here body language was more like, "Ok you have my interest, here's your chance to do something about it." I didn't look away until she did—I'm not completely inept guys. So then I pulled out and managed to hop the curb which I expected to be embarrassed about but I was cool about it.
Come to think about it I had a certain magnetism in the mall too, and I was surprised because I felt a little ratty in appearance that day.
Fast forward to a couple of days ago and I'm at the mall yet again. I'm walking towards and past one of those cosmetic places and 3 of the girls that work there are standing at the entrance chit chatting. Well the girl in the middle—the only attractive one—spots me and practically stares the whole time I'm in her field of vision. Smiling a little bit too. The other girls look too but they're quick glances. I thought I looked good that day.
Nice to have the attention. One day these stories will have middles and ends. These are baby steps. I need a big dick and I need control over it. I keep talking about this yet I continue to allow days and weeks to go by without doing anything about it. What is wrong with me?
I've been working a little on ejaculation control.
I get to my car and I'm sitting there with the window down fucking around on my phone, when this SUV turns in one spot over. I scan the inside starting with the driver who's a woman past her prime, and then I see some younger girls in the back. On my side out comes this cute blonde who must be late teens/early 20s. So she gets out and I'm looking at her, and she's standing there looking at me (we're both wearing sunglasses) and this goes on for 5 or 6 seconds which is a long time for a stare between strangers. As I said the window was down yet we exchanged no words. Here body language was more like, "Ok you have my interest, here's your chance to do something about it." I didn't look away until she did—I'm not completely inept guys. So then I pulled out and managed to hop the curb which I expected to be embarrassed about but I was cool about it.
Come to think about it I had a certain magnetism in the mall too, and I was surprised because I felt a little ratty in appearance that day.
Fast forward to a couple of days ago and I'm at the mall yet again. I'm walking towards and past one of those cosmetic places and 3 of the girls that work there are standing at the entrance chit chatting. Well the girl in the middle—the only attractive one—spots me and practically stares the whole time I'm in her field of vision. Smiling a little bit too. The other girls look too but they're quick glances. I thought I looked good that day.
Nice to have the attention. One day these stories will have middles and ends. These are baby steps. I need a big dick and I need control over it. I keep talking about this yet I continue to allow days and weeks to go by without doing anything about it. What is wrong with me?
I've been working a little on ejaculation control.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
