06-25-2016, 09:31 AM
I want to start with the observation that it's crazy how things happen in minutes or seconds, and then it's so time consuming to actually put them into words. Language, especially in written form, has been referred to as 'dead' because our thoughts always precede communication. It's interesting to observe how fast your brain actually works, and then how you make conscious sense of your thoughts and feelings after that fact.
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The other day at work I ran into a customer that I've seen before. She's probably a 9 or 9.5 in my book. The definition of nubile. You know she knows that she's gorgeous, and has probably known that since 14; when she got her first orbiters. But she doesn't have that heir of 'I'm hot shit' which I found peculiar. Anyways she comes in with this guy—difficult to put my finger on the nature of their relationship—and we're talking in an employee-customer fashion, and I sensed two things that I want to share. First, it felt like this guy was deferring to me through his body language and his speech. Like he was acknowledging my dominance over him. I wasn't doing any sort of posturing, but my presence has grown since AM6 and I think I've got some kind of SM aura going on. He grabbed her a couple of times as if to remind her of their relationship. As an aside, there's an early episode of family guy where Mr. Pewterschmidt shows Brian his prize-winning dog and makes reference to the heat coming off of her genitalia. There's was something about this girl. I could smell the sex coming off of her. Maybe she was releasing pheromones my way. Every time I looked at her she was wide-eyed with a smile on her face. The truth is that I was nervous and not completely myself around her. I was conscious of our eye contact and I was trying to balance how much I looked her and looked at the guy. I think she liked me though. Classic Dubls had a hard time believing that a girl that attractive could like me, but I'm trying to drill into myself that it's better to assume attraction because women are subtle. After she left I was kind of distracted because I was angry at myself for feeling nervous around her.
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The other day at work I ran into a customer that I've seen before. She's probably a 9 or 9.5 in my book. The definition of nubile. You know she knows that she's gorgeous, and has probably known that since 14; when she got her first orbiters. But she doesn't have that heir of 'I'm hot shit' which I found peculiar. Anyways she comes in with this guy—difficult to put my finger on the nature of their relationship—and we're talking in an employee-customer fashion, and I sensed two things that I want to share. First, it felt like this guy was deferring to me through his body language and his speech. Like he was acknowledging my dominance over him. I wasn't doing any sort of posturing, but my presence has grown since AM6 and I think I've got some kind of SM aura going on. He grabbed her a couple of times as if to remind her of their relationship. As an aside, there's an early episode of family guy where Mr. Pewterschmidt shows Brian his prize-winning dog and makes reference to the heat coming off of her genitalia. There's was something about this girl. I could smell the sex coming off of her. Maybe she was releasing pheromones my way. Every time I looked at her she was wide-eyed with a smile on her face. The truth is that I was nervous and not completely myself around her. I was conscious of our eye contact and I was trying to balance how much I looked her and looked at the guy. I think she liked me though. Classic Dubls had a hard time believing that a girl that attractive could like me, but I'm trying to drill into myself that it's better to assume attraction because women are subtle. After she left I was kind of distracted because I was angry at myself for feeling nervous around her.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
