05-26-2011, 04:56 AM
@ Ben: Yep, its yet another type of shit test to weed out weaker guys I guess. 
Anyway, my arousal spikes have leveled off for now but my bantering and flirting are holding steady (or maybe going up more so than I realize?). I also realize that I'm making more and more eye contact with women I find attractive. And once again, the more average girls are paying less attention to me (no loss to me, really
).
My coworkers are making snide comments towards me so apparently things are changing more so than I thought. I really hate jealous people. I catch myself acting jealous at times but I catch myself feeling it and then calling myself out on it.
My standards are going up, that's a given. But having said that, I am not better than anyone else. Some may think that I'm a snob but that's not true. If somebody rubs me the wrong way, I will not associate with them. Period!
I spiked my hair up yesterday (finally got it right so it looked like quills instead of a wet dog!) and one of my coworkers made a comment about it. The nurses sure did like looking at me and smiling yesterday so there I go!.
Thus far on stage 2 here is what I am experiencing...
* much improved self image
* flirting, whether it's verbal or touching, is coming along. At times, I catch myself wanting to flirt too much, like neediness may be rearing its ugly head at times. However, neediness as a whole is reduced.
* better mood since starting stage 2 but sometimes I do get into a negative mood, especially when somebody is trying to pull me down to their level (I'm aware of that and know what's going down and realize they're trying to neg me)
* body language getting slightly smoother. I never, ever get feedback on that, with the exception from Ryan regarding my photos. So I just trust that it's getting better...
Anyway, my arousal spikes have leveled off for now but my bantering and flirting are holding steady (or maybe going up more so than I realize?). I also realize that I'm making more and more eye contact with women I find attractive. And once again, the more average girls are paying less attention to me (no loss to me, really
). My coworkers are making snide comments towards me so apparently things are changing more so than I thought. I really hate jealous people. I catch myself acting jealous at times but I catch myself feeling it and then calling myself out on it.
My standards are going up, that's a given. But having said that, I am not better than anyone else. Some may think that I'm a snob but that's not true. If somebody rubs me the wrong way, I will not associate with them. Period!
I spiked my hair up yesterday (finally got it right so it looked like quills instead of a wet dog!) and one of my coworkers made a comment about it. The nurses sure did like looking at me and smiling yesterday so there I go!.
Thus far on stage 2 here is what I am experiencing...
* much improved self image
* flirting, whether it's verbal or touching, is coming along. At times, I catch myself wanting to flirt too much, like neediness may be rearing its ugly head at times. However, neediness as a whole is reduced.
* better mood since starting stage 2 but sometimes I do get into a negative mood, especially when somebody is trying to pull me down to their level (I'm aware of that and know what's going down and realize they're trying to neg me)
* body language getting slightly smoother. I never, ever get feedback on that, with the exception from Ryan regarding my photos. So I just trust that it's getting better...
Get your pickles!!!
