06-16-2016, 05:57 AM
Day 87 - the awakening
I haven't gone to my job in weeks now. I'm not even worried, is that weird? My friend offered me a job selling furniture. He was telling me I'm only half committed to my dreams and I need to plan for the future. they offer 401k and have benefits.
I am a guy who hasn't had medical insurance since college and I'm 40. I know I should get it, especially when I start a family. but right now...
I've been so obsessed about finding a girlfriend that I neglected to focus on work. now I have to get a second job to cover my living expenses.
I do have a date next wed with a woman I met online. she is like an upgraded version of my ex which I'm not totally against but thoughts of the ex keep popping in my head while I'm with this one. my ex got married and had a kid literally 8 months after we broke up. so I don't know what's going on there.
I can't stop thinking about my crush though. she apparently had a rough break up.
I have been watching pua videos to see what I can apply to get her.
I feel like I'm more determined when I set my mind to a task.
I have been doing more in the moment meditation. I want to set time to actually meditate because I see more and more successful ppl doing it.
In the past, I have listened to multiple subs and have noticed effects from some and not others, unless the results kept me from noticing my progress. I have a habit of hyper focusing and not noticing things.
I am happy with my results now that I am reaching 3 months. now typically when I listen to a sub and the 4th month rolls around, resistance diminishes significantly and then I see real results.
my life is so much better now than it was when I first started the sub.
I haven't gone to my job in weeks now. I'm not even worried, is that weird? My friend offered me a job selling furniture. He was telling me I'm only half committed to my dreams and I need to plan for the future. they offer 401k and have benefits.
I am a guy who hasn't had medical insurance since college and I'm 40. I know I should get it, especially when I start a family. but right now...
I've been so obsessed about finding a girlfriend that I neglected to focus on work. now I have to get a second job to cover my living expenses.
I do have a date next wed with a woman I met online. she is like an upgraded version of my ex which I'm not totally against but thoughts of the ex keep popping in my head while I'm with this one. my ex got married and had a kid literally 8 months after we broke up. so I don't know what's going on there.
I can't stop thinking about my crush though. she apparently had a rough break up.
I have been watching pua videos to see what I can apply to get her.
I feel like I'm more determined when I set my mind to a task.
I have been doing more in the moment meditation. I want to set time to actually meditate because I see more and more successful ppl doing it.
In the past, I have listened to multiple subs and have noticed effects from some and not others, unless the results kept me from noticing my progress. I have a habit of hyper focusing and not noticing things.
I am happy with my results now that I am reaching 3 months. now typically when I listen to a sub and the 4th month rolls around, resistance diminishes significantly and then I see real results.
my life is so much better now than it was when I first started the sub.
