Ronatello il magnete del sesso (SM 2011)

[ronatello]

Yes I was inspired by David Deangelo when I first got into PUA (I don't bother reading any of it anymore and feel much better for it.) and I tend to have it on autopilot when I am at full confidence. My old problem was too much cockiness which was fake, I have no interest in that fake front anymore since starting Alpha, which is good.

I dabbled with David Deangelo's stuff for a bit... it got me started but some of the stuff he taught rubbed me the wrong way. Then I jumped over to Cory's material which was far better, IMHO. He taught being real and authentic and never, EVER putting on a fake front.
The temptation is there to put on that fake mask in order to pull women to you but that can come around and bite you on the arse.
I still agree the most with Cory's approach to the whole thing (except for using his affirmations... I switched over to subliminals and never looked back). While things may start off slowly, things can build up, often in an exponential level. Look at what's happening to Ryan!
There will be sidesteps and perhaps some back-peddling but it's best to learn from those situations instead of being up oneself from them.

I still feel that Alpha Male 2010 is still "compiling and installing" even as I speak.
My "alphaness" got tested last night. Allow me to explain.
One of my coworkers, a young girl decided to not clean (discharge-clean) a patient room after our last break. There was ample time to clean the room. I helped her clean since she requested help earlier in the evening (and I did so not to be nice to her; but to help her out).
Anyways, I got back up to the area to clean the last room and she was nowhere to be found. I began to get miffed and after I got done, I texted her, "thanks for the help! " and then I headed on down to do my paperwork and then confronted her. She could tell I was upset judging by the way she was acting (very submissive and apprehensive... like the feeling one gets when they get called to the principal's office at school).
I calmly asked her where she was and we talked a bit and she brought up the subject that she told me not to clean the room (I heard of no such thing). I then told her it's unwise to leave rooms un-done for the next shift. It's just uncool to slag off and leave things undone when there is ample time to do them. In other words, I despise laziness! Let's just say it was a black mark on her score card and a red flag for future reference. If she wants my respect, she will have to earn it back.

Now, a beta male would have done two things. Option 1 would be to not confront her and just sweep the situation under the rug, and then harbor intense anger and bitterness for NOT taking action and so on.
Option 2 would be acting crazy mad and angry towards her and causing a nasty scene. I would call that the "tough guy beta male acting 'alpha' ".
I kept my voice tone in check and maybe had a bit of nerves calling her out but never once did I scream or yell.
She later apologized via text. She also told that she owes me one (we'll see lol).
Looking back, I should have took action sooner, asking where she was and requesting that she come and help. Live and learn, I guess

Getting back to SM 2011, I find myself flirting more, not to mention hugging some cute / pretty nurses... and bantering with them. Arousal keeps hitting me in waves. Self image keeps inching up. Despite last night's mishap, things are looking up.