Beginning of a new stage is always interesting. I had a dream where I was at some kind of outdoor lounge at night and I was hitting it off with a cute/slightly drunk blonde. Sex was implied and we decided to go some place quiet. So we are weaving through groups of people and somehow I lose her. I end up at a subway station and then the lights go out. People on the platform don't know what's going on and there's this one guy who starts getting all weird about it. Its dim and a light flashes in the distance revealing the silhouette of two large creatures. The guy and I see it and he takes off. I follow. We scale a fence and we're running through this maintenance area. We know something is about to go down. Im trying to warm people on the other side of the fence. I look back and I see the silhouette of what looks like a giant praying mantis with scythes for arms gaining on us. And then I woke up.
I think this represents my mind not only fighting the new programming (girl slips out of my hands) but also trying to fear me out of change (creatures forcing me away).
PS I'm becoming increasingly frustrated by the fact that despite how unhappy I am about the size of my dick and my PE, there is no sense of urgency or desire to act. It's like whatever part of me wants those things to change pales in comparison to the part that has reserved itself to believing that I can't change them. Incredibly frustrating.
I think this represents my mind not only fighting the new programming (girl slips out of my hands) but also trying to fear me out of change (creatures forcing me away).
PS I'm becoming increasingly frustrated by the fact that despite how unhappy I am about the size of my dick and my PE, there is no sense of urgency or desire to act. It's like whatever part of me wants those things to change pales in comparison to the part that has reserved itself to believing that I can't change them. Incredibly frustrating.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
