Concious and Unconcious effort journal

[Spiral]

My anxiety became more noticeable when I began alpha. It's part of the program and it brings these things up to get rid of them instead of just suppress them. I've had no results with women in the last year.. I've met a few but nothing has come of it. If you want results with women you cannot think about the outcome and be open to anything. In other words just go with it kind of thing. But that's where many guys have hang ups and they begin to think of the type of behavior they are displaying and if they are doing this right or this wrong. Instead just focus your energy on feeling good, having a good time, listening to women, and playing with them. It really can be hard for alot of people like me who just couldn't control the anxiety. Just keep going and even if you feel like you could make improvements without these subs I'm sure you can but they will help speed the process up. I know for sure I've gotten down on myself so much about how I "can't" do what my friends can do.. what do they do different? It does kind of aggravate me that I've had to get help and listen to these subs... but They've helped me get up off my ass and do something about it. I'm finally taking control of my life and taking it into the direction I want to take it.. slowly but surely. I know where you are at man and it's a damn pain in the ass... just take a walk outside.. and smile.

Btw.. I'll make a suggestion... try out the Positive thinking sub. I don't know if you've been a negative person for most of your life but I sure have and the alpha male sub didn't address it as much as I'd hoped. but in conjunction with positive thinking everything is so much better.. and I know I can have things the way I want them to. All it takes is some patience and initiative to get yourself out there and experience the world. Take things much slower than you are used to.. it will help.