Ivaylo's BASE 2.0 Journal

[Ivaylo]

My curiosity got the best of me and I tried my mother's copy of EPRHA 2.0 for 2 hours just to see if I should consider buying it for myself later on.

Well, the difference compared to BASE was staggering. BASE is social, confident and ambitious, while on EPRHA I felt introverted, emotional and well, quite a bit directionless. It seems that it would definitely require a fair bit of maturity to choose this as your natural state for 3-6 months instead of any of the six-stagers.

Still, I'd most likely use it for at least 3 months, since if I don't, it's likely that I'll regret it later.

This is curious because my run with E 2 now is sort of unveiling the real me. I'm procrastinating slightly less, I'm more social and a lot of things are opening up to me that were sort of closed off while on BASE. I feel peaceful in a confident sort of way like everything will be okay. If the past few days are any indication, things will be far better than okay pretty soon.

In a way on E 2 the "how" of some of my plans are becoming clear. I know "what" i wanted to do while using BASE, but E 2 is kind of revealing the different paths I have. I think it's because I'm more emotionally in control now, but who knows.

It would be interesting to see how E 2 affects you.

Actually, I can relate to what you described a lot. At least that was my experience the *next* day, instead of while I was listening. Maybe because when I gave it a listen it was already after 9.30PM, but I didn't think I was too tired. On second thought, maybe I was.

I can definitely see it working in such a way as you mentioned in the long run. It just might mean generating different behaviors/states for me to get there. Pretty cool.

Interesting comparision. Either it was working on something so you temporarily felt more emotional or my other thought is since it helps you do what you need to do to heal specifically for you.. for one person it may be to be around people less, for others it may be to become more social again.

Shannon can confirm but that's my thought.

Both of you hit the nail right on the head, I think. It seems to depend on the type of character you are (and your flaws). I tend to keep my attention focused outward for too long, so I probably have some emotional/mental junk about being introverted or something.

I try to make a habit out of having some introspection, and when I actually do I'm much better at everything, but I don't remember to do it as often as I should. E2 on the other hand did exactly that, did it on a deeper level than I could do consciously and did it effortlessly (with minimal resistance on my part).

I can't get as excited about that as I can about AOSI, but it's definitely an awesome sub and it will pay off in the long run. Judging from the glipse I got, the "love flooding" part could be pretty interesting, though.