06-01-2016, 08:24 AM
(05-31-2016, 11:35 AM)apollolux Wrote:(05-31-2016, 10:39 AM)mat422 Wrote: But the crazy part is this isn't a telemarketing job. I'm a cashier at a big retail store, won't give names I'm paranoid they google this shit. I have to do all the normal duties of a cashier on top of getting people to apply for these credit cards. All for a whopping 9 dollars an hour. I'm holding out until I can find something better because this job is taking its toll on me.
In my opinion, if there's no incentive to sell the cards like a commission or raise it's not worth expending the effort to do so in this case.
They give me commission. But after the first five for the month. Then it's two bucks for each application. Not worth my time, that mental energy is better off being retained so I can utilize it in more productive areas of my life. I don't know what it is about corporations but they have this mistaken belief that your whole life revolves around them as if you want to be assimilated into some homogenized system to validate your status in society. Makes me sick to my stomach.
As a side note I wanted to see if anybody else running E2 gets these moments of fear that quickly come in and then subside. Sometimes when I run it during the day I'll notice a tension building up in my body which is usually a cue that I'm resisting what it's bringing up. So I let go into the feeling and I get these almost panic sort of feelings. Like if you hold your breath under water and that moment where you feel like you need to go up for air. That split second feeling in that moment is the best I can describe it. I know going through it I'll come out the other side better, but I frequently find myself wanting to avoid it at all costs and I feel it delays my growth. I'm not sure if this is the subliminal instructions telling me to back off or if I should just push through it. I guess they are almost like mini panic attacks.
