I don't know what the fuck is going on but this stage really does suck. The large and in charge feeling from AM6 is absent, and I feel like I'm back to being reactionary and deferring to others. I noticed some resentment towards a good friend of mine because I feel like I'm in his orbit rather than being my own gravitational force. I hate having that kind of relationship dynamic and unfortunately its familiar too me. My relationship with this guy started out that way and it's hard to change, but AM6 helped me to identify outside of that and it's frustrating to feel like I've lost ground. The resentment is really just misguided anger at myself.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
