05-29-2016, 07:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-29-2016, 07:43 AM by Sickologist.)
Being a good looking loser is better than an ugly looking loser, just sayin.
I think what you're lacking is a clear mission. Trust me, I've been there. And I mean, I've really been there. Had no direction at all, confused since birth about who I was and my place in the world. I went completely off the rails in college and burnt out. I was out to prove something, but all I met was resitance and hate. That pushed me into a deep despression, the Great Depression. I didn't talk to anybody for 6 months, locked inside my room eating crap and watching movies. Then I started reading, and gradually found my calling. My purpose in this world is to filter all the bs in society, shake it up like a halway decent Martini and toss the intoxicating liqiuds back at the world.
Since realizing this, everything I do comes back to this. It's been 2 and a half years since I got out the personal hell. Hitting on chicks is a creative and scientific endevour, not just pleasure. They go hand in hand for me. I currently have over 50 000 dollars to my name after working harder than a bloodhorse. I only seek 3 things out of life, making a living as an artist, be mentally and physically strong like the Hulk and get laid. That's it.
When I wake up in the morning, I can't wait to hit the gym. I work out every day and go as hard as possible every fucking time. I work full time in a physically demanding job, I mean sometimes I have to load long-ass steel pipes weighing 60kgs into a container all by myself, and that's a couple of hours after doing heavy deads and squats. Don't care, I don't stop for anything or anybody. Even at 60 years old, I'm gonna be pimp. The young guns in the future better watch out, I will snatch your 20 year old hot girlfriend while you watch in utter disbelief. Every guy could get laid, there are no excuses. You simply stick your dick into her and what happens next is outside of your control anyway. Sometimes it won't be good for you, her or her curious cousin. That's just the way it is, it's a quest to figure out what works for you.
So what I'm saying is that it was necessary for me to go through that stage, rock bottom. I had to completely self destruct before rising from the ashes reborn, transformed and DRIVEN. Just know that I relate to everything your saying here.
I think what you're lacking is a clear mission. Trust me, I've been there. And I mean, I've really been there. Had no direction at all, confused since birth about who I was and my place in the world. I went completely off the rails in college and burnt out. I was out to prove something, but all I met was resitance and hate. That pushed me into a deep despression, the Great Depression. I didn't talk to anybody for 6 months, locked inside my room eating crap and watching movies. Then I started reading, and gradually found my calling. My purpose in this world is to filter all the bs in society, shake it up like a halway decent Martini and toss the intoxicating liqiuds back at the world.
Since realizing this, everything I do comes back to this. It's been 2 and a half years since I got out the personal hell. Hitting on chicks is a creative and scientific endevour, not just pleasure. They go hand in hand for me. I currently have over 50 000 dollars to my name after working harder than a bloodhorse. I only seek 3 things out of life, making a living as an artist, be mentally and physically strong like the Hulk and get laid. That's it.
When I wake up in the morning, I can't wait to hit the gym. I work out every day and go as hard as possible every fucking time. I work full time in a physically demanding job, I mean sometimes I have to load long-ass steel pipes weighing 60kgs into a container all by myself, and that's a couple of hours after doing heavy deads and squats. Don't care, I don't stop for anything or anybody. Even at 60 years old, I'm gonna be pimp. The young guns in the future better watch out, I will snatch your 20 year old hot girlfriend while you watch in utter disbelief. Every guy could get laid, there are no excuses. You simply stick your dick into her and what happens next is outside of your control anyway. Sometimes it won't be good for you, her or her curious cousin. That's just the way it is, it's a quest to figure out what works for you.
So what I'm saying is that it was necessary for me to go through that stage, rock bottom. I had to completely self destruct before rising from the ashes reborn, transformed and DRIVEN. Just know that I relate to everything your saying here.
