05-26-2016, 11:20 AM
Stage 2 Day 32
+Started working out again. I want to build strength and consistent form so I'm running Candito's linear program strength/control module while improving my cardio. It hast to be the toughest first workout I ever had. Though out the workout, I had the idea of failure is okay as a motivator to keep going. Strange as the thought sounds, It kind of works to dissolve some fear of failure in both working out and in academic life. Another thought kept telling me to put in the work and to keep going. Perhaps I am becoming my own motivator instead of trying to find others to do it for me.
+ the way I walk changed to this almost outrageous swagger. It almost looks like a cartoonish brute.
-I keep feeling the guilt and shame associated with giving up on one of the courses. Logically I know I can and will retake the course with hopefully a better professor but the feeling won't go away. It has been deeply embedded in me that success was in the form of good grades. I have my parents to thank for that.
-Now Stage 3 awaits and I have a feeling it is going to thrash me and rip my mindset out to place a new one. Like an Asian parent, they beat you so you become a better person later.
+Started working out again. I want to build strength and consistent form so I'm running Candito's linear program strength/control module while improving my cardio. It hast to be the toughest first workout I ever had. Though out the workout, I had the idea of failure is okay as a motivator to keep going. Strange as the thought sounds, It kind of works to dissolve some fear of failure in both working out and in academic life. Another thought kept telling me to put in the work and to keep going. Perhaps I am becoming my own motivator instead of trying to find others to do it for me.
+ the way I walk changed to this almost outrageous swagger. It almost looks like a cartoonish brute.
-I keep feeling the guilt and shame associated with giving up on one of the courses. Logically I know I can and will retake the course with hopefully a better professor but the feeling won't go away. It has been deeply embedded in me that success was in the form of good grades. I have my parents to thank for that.
-Now Stage 3 awaits and I have a feeling it is going to thrash me and rip my mindset out to place a new one. Like an Asian parent, they beat you so you become a better person later.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
