05-26-2016, 07:08 AM
EPRHA 2.0 started 18/03/2016
Month 2 completed 26/05/2016 - 34 days
Days completed total = 64
Days missed total = 3
Month 2 is complete. I'm going to take a break this weekend as I'm off to Europe for a stag do. I will be sleeping in dorms with at least 4 others and getting drunk each day so i wont be getting sub exposure. I'm going take Friday, Saturday and Sunday off then start Month 3 on Monday.
Month 3 was going to be my last month, making 7 months in total for E1/E2. But I think I need longer to heal. Its a good eye opener to say to myself "how would you feel if you finished today? (after 6 months)". The answer is "not where I want to be", maybe another month would do the trick but in all honesty I have a long way to go.
Today I hit a real low, like the ones I used to get occasionally on E1 - I'm feeling very depressed and my attitude has been terrible, moody and impatient DGAF. its taken me by surprise as its the first time I've felt like this in a long time, 2 months at least.
Although its hard to deal with it was always a sign that I was making good progress and was about to reach a new levels of progress, the night is darkest before the dawn . While on E1 I would always feel much better after the lows past so I'm hoping for a similar result here.
I think the depression is down to anxiety over the stag trip, I've had no intimacy with a women for 4 months, and I'm not getting on as well as I would like with my flat mate.
I'm also hitting the self help stuff a bit too hard, and not following through with the advice given. I think this is causing unnecessary pressure as I have loose ends and imaginary self inflicted tasks that "I think" I have to do hanging over me.
Some travel, friends and beer should help me out. Its been over 2 years since I went on a proper holiday/trip!!
Month 2 completed 26/05/2016 - 34 days
Days completed total = 64
Days missed total = 3
Month 2 is complete. I'm going to take a break this weekend as I'm off to Europe for a stag do. I will be sleeping in dorms with at least 4 others and getting drunk each day so i wont be getting sub exposure. I'm going take Friday, Saturday and Sunday off then start Month 3 on Monday.
Month 3 was going to be my last month, making 7 months in total for E1/E2. But I think I need longer to heal. Its a good eye opener to say to myself "how would you feel if you finished today? (after 6 months)". The answer is "not where I want to be", maybe another month would do the trick but in all honesty I have a long way to go.
Today I hit a real low, like the ones I used to get occasionally on E1 - I'm feeling very depressed and my attitude has been terrible, moody and impatient DGAF. its taken me by surprise as its the first time I've felt like this in a long time, 2 months at least.
Although its hard to deal with it was always a sign that I was making good progress and was about to reach a new levels of progress, the night is darkest before the dawn . While on E1 I would always feel much better after the lows past so I'm hoping for a similar result here.
I think the depression is down to anxiety over the stag trip, I've had no intimacy with a women for 4 months, and I'm not getting on as well as I would like with my flat mate.
I'm also hitting the self help stuff a bit too hard, and not following through with the advice given. I think this is causing unnecessary pressure as I have loose ends and imaginary self inflicted tasks that "I think" I have to do hanging over me.
Some travel, friends and beer should help me out. Its been over 2 years since I went on a proper holiday/trip!!
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